I think we’ve each reached our final integrations!…The system has decided we function far more efficiently with 3 as seperate individuals (at least for the front). ..so we will probably never fully integrate completely down to ‘one self’
Jody has fully integrated with Jess & Tinks to give them better languague skills and ability to hold human form better when its needed at the front.
They have decided their integrated name will be Jessy from now on..adding the Y to acknowledge Jody being in the mix and their ‘base form’ (they are changeling) is that of Tinks’ body when they do not need to be in human form. They all agreed on this before they fully integrated and agreed whoever ended up being the strongest personality once integrated would honour that agreement.
Phoenix has remained seperate inside as her loyalty pledge has been to the littles for our bodies entire life really..that whilst ever there were littles in the system she would be their guardian and companion. Her job now is to look after the ‘insiders’ - ones who have chosen to remain living inside. She has matured alot during the menopause years despite initially really struggling with the mood swings.
Bobby is remaining seperate mainly inside in charge of maintenance of the inner world but occasionally visiting ‘to get new material’ for the holodeck programs ie new scenery from open world video games/films etc. ..they have also matured alot over the last 8 years but still find the outside world quite overwhelming and prefer the sanctuary of the ‘inner world’.
Kitty has decided on Kitty as their final integration name…..they have Juno as part of their integration. Juno and Yuna wanted to be able to blend together but as seperate individuals so they could still feel and interact with each other..so Yuna is part of my integration that way they get their wish too.
Mila is part of my integration but Ellie has stayed inside as part of the 'inside family’ as the littles and Baz know her as ‘Maya’s sister’…so she told them she lost her job in the city and has moved onto the farm with them permenantly.
Also progress on the physio front…. we have found we are moving better and able to do the exercises when they weren’t mirroring us inside…discovered this quite by accident when we had our regular physio session which had been good and we just assumed they were inside doing the same then later found they hadn’t been! Just having the extra distraction of a changeling up front and blended with us now seems to be enough to distract the FND. ..so 3 really does seem to be ‘magic number’ for us!