Co-conscience for the first time

So, I saw my T a few days ago and was co-conscience with Tears (12yo alter). It was extremely strange and exhausting afterwards. I learned the following, Tears protects me and holds many of my emotions, she doesn't think I can handle these emotions, my husband triggers her, and she wants more time to write. I guess it validates the diagnosis but it still all seems so surreal. It was a very informative session though. I'm beginning to feel like I can handle it. I was hospitalized recently at a Trauma Center and seemed to have regained my confidence, which is good considering the intensity of the therapy session I just mentioned. So, my question to you guys, can you describe being co-conscience with one or several of your alters? I had weird tingly sensations on my arms and it's like I was in the back seat. She was talking and I was watching but she was in control. I'm looking forward to hearing everyone's responses!

Hi newtothis1234

For me I guess I have always been co-conscious with my others, just by hearing them, but not always when they are in control. I don't have any feeling when this happens, but when I come back for me it is still not a good feeling. I am still in the beginning stages and still struggle with denial, so I don't know if this is why I cant be there when they are or not. I am still learning about my system and still learning to accept them......there are others that have talked to therapist that I still do not hear. It just depends on you and your system the way you may experience things.

Hello newtothis1234

Though our system is very diverse, I'm almost always co-hosting with at least 1 or 2 alters at my side (i'm still the one mainly in control, but i can feel & hear them "next to me"). I'm so use to it at this point that i'm not sure I remember a time being completely by-myself. Though I do notice a sudden change in feeling if an alter takes control of a limb, it's almost like a numb feeling. (kind of like the tingling-sensation you were describing).

I actually had a thread similar to this a couple weeks ago, if you'd like to look through it, feel free. It was discussing phases of Co-hosting & Co-consciousnesses.

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Hope this helps.

I can say I stay co-conscience most of the time. What changes for me is my attitude. Outlook, posture, thoughts, opinions. Gestures. I feel like a different person. I am thinking, but like a different person. All be it, remembering it later is another matter. I remember snapshots only if it's important. If the alt can careless, I wont remember. The other day I spent 45 minutes looking for my car keys. At the last I had a thought "shed". I walked to the shed and it was hanging in the lock. No idea.

I'm the thinker, and we have a unity for the betterment of the host. Not an every alter for him/herself. We've lasted this long, we had to learn to work together to stay sane.

hi. I am co conscious most of the time but I move in and out of co consciousness depending on the environment and situation. The way I know there is more than one forward is by the feeling in my head. I get pressure in my head, I know how to describe but I just feel "full". I can't tell who or how many I am co-conscious with unless I analyze my thoughts and actions. Like it's definitely not clear cut or obvious though I'm getting better at knowing who is with me up front. The other day I had a distinct protective alter forward with a sad alter co conscious. That was very very distinct but I can't always tell because I have both fragments (feelings only) in combination with alters and it's hard to decipher what's going on at any given time until after the fact.

Xoxo

Newtothis, your feeling as if you were in the back seat but aware is very common. Here's a thread, Questions about switching, one of many similar threads, that goes with the driving analogy and mentions different variations.

Welcome,

I wonder if the tingling you feel is like mine.
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--ellenofnine