When I get little, my hands are hard to use.

I've noticed that when I get really little, it's hard to use my hands, like my fingers drag. It's funny like my hands tickle, and feel good, but I can't use them for much. Why should I feel so good if my hands don't work. It seems silly.

Edit: I think I have little from 3-5. I don't think it is brain damage. It's not scary, but it is very strange. I am strange, but I feel okay. But my hands are funny.

Cold numb hands silence the bitch...39degrees

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ellenofnine wrote:I am sorry buter8137, but perhaps your post belongs here:
antisocial-personality

My advice is to not take their words personally. Their posts are often very difficult to follow with lots of word salad and paranoid, incoherent thought patterns (at least that's the best of my ability to analyze them). I don't think they mean any harm but just have a hard time communicating, and they pop in here with us on the DID forum from time to time to vent and share their issues. I know this sounds so terribly patronizing all around, but it's just my honest opinion/advice to just regard them as troubled and confused but not take their posts personally. It seems like they might suffer from other disorders but feel safe and at home venting here with us in this forum.

All of that aside:

I get similar weird issues with my hands once in a great while, like they look way too big and it surprises me, and then I'm ridiculously clumsy with them.

Hi Ellenofnine,

Could it be possible that when a little one fronts, the body has the fine motor skill of a 3 year old? Have you watched a 3 year old using their hands? Maybe that's what happens, you stay "co-present", because you're able to see, but the little alter is the one who has control of the body, in the way a little one controls their body.

Sea

We have this too I think it's funny and yes it does feel funny. How much a little can enjoy their hands lol

Sea,

After reading what you wrote about being co-present, I did some reading, and it seems like what I am experiencing.

It's funny, when I get little co-present, it feels one way, but if I examine my system, which is probably moving information or fronting with from my ISH then, I feel extremely dissociated, even disoriented, but I bring back information. It's like my little is powerfully emotional, and my ISH is powerfully intellectual, and I may not not be either, at the moment.

I've noticed that when I get really little, it's hard to use my hands, like my fingers drag. It's funny like my hands tickle, and feel good, but I can't use them for much. Why should I feel so good if my hands don't work. It seems silly.

Edit: I think I have little from 3-5. I don't think it is brain damage. It's not scary, but it is very strange. I am strange, but I feel okay. But my hands are funny.
ellenofnine

I notice this most when I'm half way dissociated with a little. It happened during an exam last week, and my writing was like I was 6 again. I couldn't move my hands properly and my whole realist felt jerky and twisted and out of touch.

I was able to do the exam (thankfully I found it easy) so that makes me think that I was half way, otherwise I wouldn't have noticed because my memory from being little is super patchy and snapshot like: so I wouldn't remember that much of a small detail. It definitely happens to me though: I was in college and for the love of god I couldn't write properly at all.

It was really frustrating and I found it really difficult to concentrate too. I felt really distracted and time-warpy. x

Hi Ellenofnine,

Yeah, in those moments you could be co-present or co-conscious.

From the post About this forum- things you need to know:

Co-consciousness = can include a varied set of subjective experiences that includes two or more alters being aware of what the other is doing at one time.
Co-present = can include a varied set of subjective experiences that includes two or more alters being present in the body, though with little ability to communicate between each part or at times not know the other(s) is even present.

ellenofnine wrote:It's funny, when I get little co-present, it feels one way, but if I examine my system, which is probably moving information or fronting with from my ISH then, I feel extremely dissociated, even disoriented, but I bring back information. It's like my little is powerfully emotional, and my ISH is powerfully intellectual, and I may not not be either, at the moment.

Yeah, if I understood correctly, you are compartmentalizing. And your little guards a lot of emotions, while your ISH is much more intelectual. Maybe when the ISH fronts there are more barriers between you two. That's why you feel extremely dissociated and disoriented after he/she fronts. Maybe it's more difficult for the two of you to stay co-conscious. But with work, all that can change. If you want to.

Sea

In the occasional times I let our Little I. mainly front, she's always accompanied co-conscious by a predominant Alter (or myself.) She's about 7 or 8 so she has okay (but not great) hand function. but we can't draw with the same level as usual (She loves to finger paint though), and she's poor at spelling and trying to type out words on a computer, so when she's replying to someone on the forums, it's more like "dictated by I., written by another".

We can relate to your issue though, I don't think she does well with the over-all height-change of our body. When we get to play with my kid cousins at the park by their house, she bumps our head or trips fairly often on the playground equipment, since in our inner-world, she's petite-build and only like 3 feet tall, where as the body she's controlling is rather solid and close to 6 feet tall.