Interaction question

Why is it so intense to interact with another multiple?
Why do we (even though we came out to them first,) want to hide from them, even though I can feel that we try to be known by them at the same time? As far as I know I really would like to be known by them and know them, but I don't understand why we would want to hide or why we're so scared of them. If it even is fear. I feel like we already do know each other, just the words, the words wont come out.
I mean, it doesn't even make sense to try and hide something that is very much out in the open regardless. Why do we instinctively throw singleton answers at their questions even when I know they are asking for the real answer? Why do we fear talking to them in plural etc, when at the same time we have switched in front of them more than we even know about, knowing that they saw it happen? Knowing and experiencing that our alters (want to) interact with each other, it shouldn't be a big deal to talk about it and/or just let it happen. It's weird and I want to stop being so secretive.

For me, it is like being a virgin all over again. I both desire and fear the intimacy. Another multiple, at least one who has a sufficiently similar structure to their DID system, just naturally resonates with multiple parts of me simultaneously. The emotional, psychic multiplexing is a novel and very exciting sensation. And because those parts are as a rule hidden and secret, they are very, very lonely, so the longing for contact with the other person can be almost overwhelming. Hence the experience can be frightening.

The first time I experienced this resonance with another person, the man my Alter 5 was in love with, I was overwhelmed and I thought it was something unique about him. But he was not all that unique. In the past few years I have met in person several other multiples and had with each of them a similar experience of resonance. So I know I do not need contact with this one person to experience this intense feeling of intimacy; I can find other multiples to experience it with, if I want to.

I talk about this here and there throughout my very long thread. The most relevant post is this one: DID Forum: Alter in love was a mystery to me: The wish to meet other multiples

The experience of resonance is an important part of my personal DID-dar. For those of you who have met multiple other multiples I have a question: does your DID-dar involve a feeling of resonance with the other person?

DID Forum: Do you have DID-dar?

The fear that we mostly have is that the opportunities to truly share are limited, and that Thecollective's fear and overwhelm will make it so that this chance will pass us by. I want to be able to use the brief time we have together as best as possible. You are right I do think it's something about this specific person lol. In fact I don't even want to believe that it's not .
I've met other multiples but I didn't have this resonance with them, but I understand that their systems were indeed vastly different from ours and this one isn't so much.
This system is helping us grow in so many ways but I feel like our fear keeps us from even acting like a person around them. It's bordering on ridiculous. I don't want to disappoint myself, or them. So is there anything I can do to lessen these feelings to a more bearable degree?