THE SHUTDOWN

don't want to overstep boundaries...

but maybe the meds are helping stuff to disappear and such?

i know cassandra's bipolar meds used to shut us out and make the inner world disappear to her...




- cassie (age ?)

you can always spit the $#%^ out.

i give great advice, don't I.

they are just plain stupid.

when the psychotic episodes got worse no no no no need for change of antipsychotics.

now the dissociation is this bad they think it s one big psyhosis and I flush the new pills.

the other pills I ve been on before the shutdown too.
only new ones are tramadol and muscle relaxers

the world is still dark. there was some improvement, then a lot of host s friends let her down at once and with that somethin else hurt her badly and with her weak and nearly dead again the shutdown coudln t be completely rebooted if that makes sense.

We re setin our hope up for tomorrow.

I feel so drained. I actually feel like dyin

Nina11

We hope with you.
You are special and important and you are all in our thoughts.

thank you

*big sigh*

host is on the mend but weak

ceridwen can t be host anymore
fabio and lesly are gone

but the kids are there

so well we ll act a bit younger then LOL LOL LOL

Such a relief.

There s a landscape now. Very borin. Desert.But it s a landscape again. It s no more a dead world.
life is comin back
Slowly
couldn t have doen without someone dear and you know who you are

tho i do acknowledge all the support I have had on here too thanks very muc!

Nina11

glad to hear about the progress

keep hanging in there

you're very strong




- cassie (age ?)

I'm glad the inner world is coming back, slowly.

You're doing so well and I really hope this turns out to be such a good thing.

I'm you feel helped by someone on here (and others too)

I m back.

Been intears. It s been so intense.

We have a seed to plant. I m not on my own.

tears tears tears

*sobs*

so much pain

Nina11

I'm so sorry. I think of you a lot. I hope the pain lessens soon. (safe hugs) if wanted.