THE SHUTDOWN

Don't know if you get to read this, but I'm definitely waiting for your (all) return.

Hope it turns out OK.

Best wishes

Thanks

Animal world shut down today.

They came for me and Indie but we wanted more time.

They ll come back tomorrow prob.

Will see what happens!

Fabio

-- Thu Apr 04, 2013 7:37 pm --

there s a lady in green with a scyth, she came and cut down the golden huge baobab.

she wanted me too, but she s willin to give me time and we watched what happened to the animal world.

Lesly shone bright, so did host. They re stars now.

You must plant a new baobab.

Amber should call animals.

And we all shine on, like the moon, like the starts, like the sun,

always always always-

we are stars already

if you got a problem, the problem has a problem.

the animals are gone but Wolf

I,host, am changed and back but wont last long.

Shutdown has started we ll see where it ends

<i ve had great support on here, you know who you are.

Nina11

-- Fri Apr 05, 2013 11:59 pm --

it s empty and dark
fabio is gone, the kids are gone
there were so many things left to do.

innerworld is dark and dead

it s as if everythin is dyin and finishin off.

sadness overwhelms me. I thought we were makin progress

I'm so glad you were meaning something else, because as I was reading I had the same though as Hornet and got really worried.

nina11 wrote:I m havin a rum and a #######1, deserve one!

nina11 wrote:Valium, xanax, tramadol, muscle relaxer, antidepressive and antipsychotic. Do you think it s safe to take more?

In relation to the pills, all of those are safe to take together as long as they're taken at low mg. So for anyone who read that long list and got concerned it's not as bad as it looks.
*Trigger warning*
However, the alcohol and pill mixture is what is really concerning especially with Xanax because it can cause organ failure and with Valium it can cause respiratory failure or a coma. The drugs you're taking and alcohol are all Central Nervous System depressants that slow brain function. And this can cause serious side effects and in most cases death. *end trigger warning*

Which is why I am so happy to see you posting and that you're okay! In the future I wouldn't mix those drugs and alcohol. Please! Because none of us want any of those horrible things to happen to you!!

nina11 wrote:it s empty and dark
fabio is gone, the kids are gone
there were so many things left to do.

innerworld is dark and dead

it s as if everythin is dyin and finishin off.

sadness overwhelms me. I thought we were makin progress

I hope it's not a complete shutdown and it's just a reboot or something! You guys were making great progress and I want you to be able to continue to do so. I hope this all ends soon and no one is gone permanently

Nina11 wrote:sadness overwhelms me. I thought we were makin progress

I think you are. In a way. Somehow. I don't know how. I'm sure it will make sense one day, whatever the outcome.
Maybe it's like autumn. A lot dies or hides. Then winter comes. And then spring. And what has died grows back. What has hidden comes back. I hope it will be like that.

You are in our thoughts.
We are here if there's anything we can do.
(safe hugs) if wanted.

the inner world is gone
nothin is left

breathin eatin and washin is hard

I feel unheard

Death breathes in my neck

I m usin all my survival skills.

Somethin needds to change

I thought me comin back would change

things

but I m not strong enough

I'm so sorry you're struggling. You are heard here. We are here.

saw the psychiatrist today

she s addin another pill to the mix
aha yea

that s gonna help me cope with a disappearin inner world

no let s not talk about the destruction
no let s not talk about past traumas

lets just make sure the pharmacy stays in business