dealing with pain and with lonely alters

First the pain. I ve discovered Indie. She can t talk, only through images.
Trigger warning: there are images of a tortured to death rabbit and lots of blood that keeps comin.

I tried to comfort her as you would a rabbit by makin a nest in blankets of fleece, comfy and warm and by holdin a toy rabbit. She liked it, but the pain she has didn t lessen.
Then she came with the blood pictures. She doesn t explain what they mean, whether she s hurt - tho I expect she is.

I tried to talk, but when I come near she act frightened. She has a room for her self now. It s empty and covered in trigger warning blood.
She sits there naked, a child. In tears and distress. Since she doesn t trust any of the other alters she s with me all the time. I try to reach out, no result.

I sthere any other thing I can do? Does she just need more time. I must admit i m scared to hear what she has to say. I can t bear her pain and don t know how to ease it; So far I m ve had 8 mg xanax and it s finally fadin; But that s no good strategy.

two: two alters want friends. Amber feels lonely, she wants kids to play with and Fabio wants more sex partners. Is it a good idea to let them create friends? i told them no. Amber can play with star or Elf. No kids of coures. Not sure if that s enough effort?

thanks all for your time and love and support. I would be lost without this space.

With Indie, She probably needs time. With frightened little ones, usually the best thing is to reach out often and with time; maybe a little, maybe more, depending on how much trauma there is, the child learns that you aren't there to hurt. Your presence becomes familiar, then, eventually comforting. Until then, you can't reasonably force a frightened child to cope. It usually causes more damage to try, and there's no guarantee that it will work...

With the other thing, well, how many other alters are there? Maybe they can find friends among them?

The problem with the alters is, that not all of them are human;

Fabio wanted Amber as a ssex partner, poor kid is between 2 and 8 o #######1, so I told him a firm no. Enough trauma thank you.

The others, Elf is a form of energy, book is a book you can t play with him, he s vicious bu tkind too, Pele is a possibility but Fabio is straight so he won t go for him.

Lesley would like to meet girls.

My head is so crowded. New alters keep poppin op. I m hopin for an end but I ve learned it s neverendin.

As for Indie, I ll give her space. I often sit next to her, and rock as she rocks; The fact that I mimick her reassures her. She doesn t look at me, she stares at the ground. But I can tell she enjoys me justbein there with no expectation.

But the pain is unbearable; Don t know how to cope.

Thx for your reply it means a lot to me

Well I'm sorry I couldn't help with the last post...
I take it Tylenol won't help.
I wouldn't go for the drink or drugs.
Have you tried breathing techniques?
Or meditation?

Wait, What have you tried?

The pain is there. I d rather call it agony.

So far I try to do somethin that relaxes me. That would be music, wrappin myself in blankets and fleece, tryin to watch a third of a movie, such things;

But when it gets really bad ... breathin exercises calm me down, but the pain isn t less.
Meditation makes me psychotic, I have to be very careful what to do.

This far only rum and tranquillisers get me through the day. I hate it. I don t want to live like this.

It was easier when I was healthier and could go for a walk or a bike ride, meet people.

This pain as always been there, but more on the background. Indie has brought it up in it s full galore and I just can t handle it. Cryin in agony.

Thx for you reply

these threads might be helpful to you:

-- Depressed alters (discusses how to help depressed alters cope safely) (possibly triggering): http://www.psychforums.com/dissociative-identity/topic96897.html

-- Stopping Hurting Myself: http://www.psychforums.com/dissociative-identity/topic101170.html(Possibly triggering) (it talks about how to cope with self-harm wants, self-hate, depression, pain, and might help with loneliness)




- cassie (age ?)