Have i got split personality disorder?

sweetngentle Thank you for replying much appreciated

I am currently getting help with "the early intervention in psycosis" for social phobia do you think i should print my first post off and maybe show it to her?

Oh i managed to go in the shower last night "maybe my promiscuous other self will come out and make me goto the pub now ive been in the shower" lol I hope not!

Signing out!

Scooby,
If you feel that the early intervention route would help both you and your therapist then I would think it a good idea to print it off and show it to her. BUT only if you are going to be comfortable with her knowing.

Take Care,
Sweetngentle

I've had over a year to get to know her but i dont know if i trust her yet "but i do have a paranoid side to me also" so i really dont know how to judge her. i will think on it and ill let you know what she says about my post.

Thanks for keep replying to me, you must be busy as hell trying to reply to loads of people lol

HI SCOOBYDO,

GLAD YOU'RE STILL POSTING. SWEETNGENTLE HAD SOME GOOD ADVICE. I'D LISTEN TO HER. (DON'T BELIEVE EVERYTHING YOU READ ON THESE FORUMS.)

I TOLD MY "T" WHEN I FELT I COULD TRUST HIM. IT'S HARD FOR ME TO TRUST. WHEN I TRIED TO GET HELP AS A CHILD, WELL LETS JUST SAY THINGS DIDN'T WORK OUT TOO WELL. I WONDER IF THAT HAS A LOT TO DO WITH SPLITING. WHEN YOU CAN'T TRUST PEOPLE AROUND YOU TO HELP OUT, WHAT OTHER CHOICE DO YOU HAVE?

JOUNALING HELPED ME TO GET TO KNOW MY ALTERS BETTER. I KIND OF MADE A PACK WITH THEM. THEY CAN WRITE DOWN WHATEVER THEY NEED TO, WHENEVER THEY NEED TO, AND I PROMISE NOT TO EDIT OR TEAR UP ANYTHING WRITTEN. IT HAS HELPED ME TO COMMUNICATE IN A MORE POSSITIVE WAY. THEY JUST WANT TO BE HEARD. YOU MIGHT BE SUPRISED AT WHAT YOU FIND! TRY IT!

I'M NO PRO. BUT ONLY ONE ALTER CONTROLS ME AT A TIME, AND I DON'T ALWAYS REMEMBER WHEN THEY DO. WHEN I AM IN CONTROL(THE HOST) I CAN HEAR THE OTHERS.(THAT IS THE ONLY WAY I KNOW I'M THE HOST) I KNOW THEY ARE ALL ME. I'M NOT REALLY SEVERAL PEOPLE, BUT IT SURE FEELS LIKE IT! I WISH I COULD CONTROL THE OTHERS! IF IT WAS THAT EASY, I WOULDN'T BE SEEING A SHRINK!

I DO KNOW DRINKING ALCOHOL NOT ONLY MAKES THINGS WORSE, BUT ALSO MAKES IT HARD FOR THEM TO DIAGNOSE YOU. ALSO, IF YOU DO HAVE D.I.D. YOUR WILD ALTERS ARE MORE LIKELY TO ACT OUT, INSTEAD OF LETTING YOU KNOW WHAT IS REALLY GOING ON. MINE DRANK TO SUPRESS MEMORIES. IT WASN'T UNTILL I STOPPED THAT I FOUND THAT OUT.

BEST WISHES EVERYONE!
BENNY

Well... yeah, we all know how I (and my alters) feel about therapy by now, but what works for one might not work for another. If you're gonna open up to someone, might as well be your therapist. As opposed to your best friend who isn't all that surprised for some reason, like my friend. I guess there were things I did that hinted at it. Like switching with D whenever we got into an argument. Though I am in agreement with sweetngentle on finding a therapist that specializes in DID. But be careful, you might run into some idiot who just puts DID on their buisness card to look good and will $#%^ themselves when you go off switching. And yes, I am referancing "First Person Plural" for those who've read it.

Thank you both for replying

Sorry i havent posted for a while, but im back now and shall keep on posting. I havent yet built up the courage to tell my helper about my thoughts that i could possibly have DID and im not sure if i should.

I've been sitting here thinking to myself "what if i havent got DID, what if it's just me not accepting different parts of my personality?"

Anyway thats my question for the day.

Scooby

I myself went a long time before I revealed my disorder to anyone. Mostly because I was afraid of their reactions. In my early 20's I wasn't thinking DID, I thought that all I was doing was going into my little fantasy world. I had no idea what was really going on. It wasn't till I was in my 40's that I knew that something was going on inside of me. I didn't have to telll my therapist I had DID. What happened was that I was in a session with my T and out came an alter.

After that I only let people who were really close to me know. I did lose some friends over the disorder. Today I am pleased with where I'm at. I haven't see a therapist in about a year and am doing quite well.

Before you let the person you are working with know of your suspicions of a DID dx I would wait till it sat well with me.

Hoping the best for you,
Sweetngentle

How will i know if an alter is replying to me? Is it just me talking to myself?

How did you know an alter was talking to you sweetngentle?

When you think "Hmmm, that might be a bad idea" and another part of you responds "#######4, its a great idea", as opposed to "Or maybe it might be a good idea" (like a non-multiple person, or singlet, might think), or when you can hold a whole conversation between yourself and another part of you, those are kinda hints at DID. When they identify themselves as being seperate from you, thats definitely a hint. When D first reappeared after the time I lost most of my memory, I just figured it was my thoughts. When he told me his history, I thought I was talking about myself till he finally said "No, I'm D. Why do you think you feel like you have two minds in the same body when you 'talk to yourself'?". And thats basically how we got our friendship rolling, and that was when I was 13. It wasn't till a few months back when something inside of me lead to an interest in DID, and the reappearance of Frank, that D explained to me that I'm multiple. And of course, wasn't till I met Frank that I started believing it. Even if our first encounter ended well, that was still scary as all hell. As for the lost memory period, thats between 3-12. I can remember small fragments, but even the fragments are just fragments of old memories. Then there's periods within that I just plain don't remember at all, like it was wiped clean from my mind. And yes, some times I doubt being DID too, but then D gets pissed at me and reassures its real . Its not a very easy thing to accept, but I'm learning to. As for the therapist, kinda build up to it, talk about feeling possessed and $#%^, hearing others' voices in your head, and gradually work up to "I think I have DID". Or flat out say "I think I'm multiple" and tell him/her what you've told us about everything. Whatever you do, good luck.

I often have thoughts that conflict with other thoughts "if that makes any sense" and views that conflict with other views.

A couple of nights a go i lay on my bed and was trying to talk to at least 1 alter, now i got replys but these replys sounded like my voice not someone elses? apparently one of my alters is called Vicky and shes aged 4.

But i cant help thinking is it just me replying to myself?

and another question i have is, is that would i get a response from an alter that easy and quick?

I kept saying "your not vicky and your not real" and i got a quick reply saying "i am real" Would an alter reply quick like that?