I WANNA DIE CAN ANYONE HELP

Anonymous wrote:HEY Sad Ugly Spirit thats so ######6 true who the ###$ cares about living anyone i mean $#%^ whats the point for living all we humans get is ###$ up emotons that drive us to do something really really stupid if I die it will be for the better not the worse. Oh one more thing Sad Ugly Spirit u can say what ever u want.

I dont want to make you feel worst, but I cant talk to anyone about my pointless life so here I am... I can tell you, when I was on edge to kill myself, I was too ######6 ###$ to even do it. Well, probably I cannot do anything right, not even to kill myself. I thought "at least pain is a feeling, who knows what would happen if i die".But I promised I WILL kill myself. I mean, whats the ######6 point? everyday I have to try so hard..everyday is the same $#%^.. i cannot wake up at the morning, i wish to sleep forever. what im I really looking for here? this is no place for me... am I really so stupid to expect something from this #######5 life? if anyone would just answer me, why am I born to this world...

Sad ugly spirit email ur life story at iamalive555@yahoo.com

I am so really depressed right now I am fixing too kill myself I just dont wanna go on right now

iamalive,
I'm sorry that you're having a hard time again!! You remember when you e-mailed me a few days ago and you were feeling great and everything, well I know that's going to happen again, because it keeps happening!!! But you're also going to get depressed again. I really wish you could just get help and stick with it. *hugs* Please try to hang in there. "hold on when you feel like letting go, it gets better as you go". *hugs*

Sad ugly spirit,
first off I hate to call you that!! SO maybe I'll shorten it to sad spirit.

I myself believe death will be a great time for some and a bad time for others. But I think we were put here for a reason, and we're supposed to live here for a while. And if you aren't happy here, talk to someone about it. 'cuz sometimes it just takes getting to the bottom of your problems, and then you can fix them. I really should take my own advice too. I also struggle with suicidal thoughts. I get so depressed that I don't see how on earth I'm supposed to carry on!! I also have a problem with hurting myself, by hitting my head a lot and banging it on the wall and stuff. And I used to cut myself, and I still want to really bad at times. But I've learned that things do get better. But when i'm feeling really low, even if I do know it's gonna get better, it doesn't make me feel any better at the moment. SO I can understand that. But I just wish both of you would hold on so you can have some great moments!!

Love,
element

Hi everyone I need to get something off my chest since this Monday I have had this sinking feeling in my stomach like something is wrong. In my body I feel so empty inside like something was rip out of me, and all this week I have felt so depressed and suicidal all week and today is so bad I just dont know why but I have all these memories running through my head I hate myself, the way I look, and the fact that I have to see my mom suffering in her condition is so sad. I have been clinging to life through thick and thin but lately I just dont give a ###$ anymore and yesterday I felt like killing myself and yet again I feel like doing it again today. I really dont know how much longer I can hold on so I am going to say I am sorry to everyone for my crying ass bitching cause thats like all it is.


" My life my pride is broken "

To all these nameless feelings
I cant deal with in my life
To all these greedy people
Trying to feed on what is mine
You’ve got to filll your hunger
And stop ######6 with my mind because now my heart's breaking because they really ripped it out and now like alaways they take pleasure watching me as I try to claw my way out. Thanks alot all u ######6 stereotypes

what's wrong with your mom?

I'm really sorry that you're having such a hard time right now!! I've pretty much explained all of that in my private message though.

I'm here for you, okay?

Come on!
Save some for me, it's what I like.
I wanna play, you know it's time.
Something is calling, I can't keep from falling.
Come on!
It's on!
Now see it's my fault, angels stabbing me inside.
Nothing changes, just rearranges, for me this time.
Once I cave in, what can I fight?
I can never win, my self I don't like,
I don't like, I don't like, I don't like.
Something is calling, I can't keep from falling.
Come on!
It's on!
You see it's my fault, angels stabbing me inside.
Nothing changes, just rearranges, for me this time.
This time. This... time.
For me, inside. Put me inside.
Hold me, this time. Put me inside.
Come on!
It's on!


I SUCK AND I WANNA DIE COMMMMMEEEEEE OONNNN!!!!!!!
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imalive,

you've been on here for awhile now letting us know your desire to die..many times you find yourself on the edge, trying to find that courage to actually commit the act and take your own life. Have you given any thought to what holds you back when you get to that point? The things that keep you from doing the ulitmate? I don't doubt that you are truly in a horrible place emotionally right now. I don't doubt that you hate yourself. But I very much believe that deep down you want your situation better more then you actually want to just die. So what is keeping you from seeking out counesling? What is keeping you from trying to make change? And I don't ask this in a mocking way, hope it doesn't sound like that. I ask this of you sincerely. Trying to get you to look deep down w/in yourself....past all those negative emotions. I'm hoping to cause a trigger for you....to jumpstart you in to not only wanting to change but pushing you out to truly try for change. Ask yourself .....do you only talk of and wish for change or have you actually tried to better situations...both physically and mentally ....have you tried to implement changes. Most people's initial reaction to a question like that is that they've tried and tried and nothing changes and that no $#%^ they want change, etc. etc. But I believe strongly that if you look really hard at your situation and really self examine it...you'll find out that you really have not made hard changes. It has to be more then getting out of bed in the morning and saying "ok...today I won't let myself be down" or what have you. It has to be not only positive thinking but taking certain behaviors that currently bring you down and searching for ways to try and change those behaviors or trade them off for something more positive. I can't answer for you what things you need to do. A professional, though, can help you get to these kinds of answers. You might even surprise yourself in getting to these answers yourself! But if you find yourself struggling at how to find these things w/in yourself....that's where I strongly urge counseling. A professional can take the information you provide about yourself and help you break it down and find positive resolve w/in each thing.

Keeping you in my thoughts and wishing for the best for you!

Hey,
I hate to hear your down again. And after reading angel's post, I don't think she left me much to say. Just read her comment and really think about it.

*hugs* God bless you.

Love,
element

Angel, I really cant describe how I am feeling rightnow . Something inside of me right now I feel like something has been taken from me like its been ripped out but I dont what it is. When I get to that edge and wanna kill myself something is holding me back but I just dont know what it is so before I head off to work I wanna say thanks angel and element hope that is spelt correct if not my my bad. MUCH LOVE TO EVERYONE