Web of lies ruining life

I've had a boyfriend for 5 months - it's been a short period of time but I really feel like I want to spend the rest of my life with him and we are going on holiday in a months time. However, I'm a pathological liar and he doesn't know this. My whole past is literally made up, the lies include; sleeping with many people (he was my first), taking drugs, meeting friends for parties, going places, getting in fights, I created a whole new life for myself, and blame all my psychological problems on it and maintain the lies almost daily.

I've always felt guilty, but have been too embarrassed to admit I'm lying. It's continuous, and I've maintained the nonstop lies for so long. I don't know how to admit I've been lying, I'm sure the trust will be lost an we will break up. Hes understanding but i dont know if i could handle of he lied so much to me, so im afraid he will leave. I don't want to lose him, but he tells me everything and it kills me lying so frequently and about something as huge as this. I don't know what to do, please help me.

Hi

I am moving this to the Compulsive Lying forum which is where it will be more appropriate as Factitous Disorders refer to deliberately faking illness

I hope that things work out for you

Cracked

Hi Molly,
You are not a pathological liar, you are a lying addict/ compulsive liar. There is a big difference. To help you understand what I mean, here's a post I did...

compulsive-lying/topic103034.html

These next 2 posts I did focus on why lying addicts lie and how to stop lying. Give them both a read and see how you feel after that. If nothing else, you will have a deeper understanding of yourself and a way forward should you choose to stop lying...

compulsive-lying/topic115788.html

compulsive-lying/topic116107.html

This last post I did is on how to come clean responsibly...

compulsive-lying/topic116108.html

Good Luck and Big Hug,
Billi Caine