Whoohoo! It's Friday. I have had a long, "interesting" week to say the least. A lot of sexuality confusion and questions depending on the inner source. I can't wait to go shopping in the am. I feel pretty pulled apart, like a tornado inside at times and my inner world is spinning like a top on its axis. So many different ideas, opinions, questions, desires and thoughts. It is exhausting. Coming off one of my antidepressants has allowed me to "make friends." I find this interesting. My inners have names like others here but it is such an invasion for them to be called out or talked to by someone outside, that I tell no one who can hurt me. It would be a personal rape. So I go by one name. Only two people in my life know their names and these people know never to acknowledge what they see come out or who. It has taken me 35 years to trust two people with this information imagine that. These two are friends not therapists etc. They have to just accept what they see and never be openly shocked by my changes. So far they have respected that and it is helping me to grow. I make no judgments of the inner workings and their desires, thoughts, actions and choices. I have had to learn to accept them all. I have seen many people talk of suicide here. I find it sad but I get it. I too have tried and failed many times. In the 12 years of therapy I have NEVER talked about that issue. LOL I find it humorous the one place I go to divulge my inner pain never really gets to see it, because I am so well protected. We take care of ourselves isn't that the point of our existence and believe me we have never talked to a therapist either. One goes in, one comes out. Certainly, we never divulge anything of importance in those sessions. It amazes me that no one ever caught on. LOL Now I just shake my head and continue to fix myself.