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![]() Been A While I guess.Not much sleep. reorganizing house,much better. Reading more and very happy. So many books so little time. Writing helps internal voices. Lots of changes. Warm cinnamon rolls 5:00am heaven! Crazy disorder. Tired.
0 Comments Viewed 6332 times Feb 13-2015 Week RecapThis week has been full of my inner humor side. Strictly wanting to learn more "German" and French. German dialect feels normal natural and to not hear it strange. Masculinely driven would elaborate but that seems really stupid at this point. Trying to understand the male gender too. Not sure who is out during these times. Mama is gone for two weeks little ones not happy, but dealing. I have to remind them of her return date and reassure them. Not easy. ALL I want to eat is garlic chicken and drink coffee. First time I have ever made it myself. Forced out of 24 hr music listening mode due to program going down, *not my fault!
![]() 0 Comments Viewed 4793 times Sleep might HelpSometimes, people don't realize how hard I have to work to hold my tongue, when inside me all sorts of things are being said towards the person in front of me. Someone made an enemy out of me today. I did everything I could to remain professional, reminding myself that other parts of me said certain things, even though this side may not agree. So keeping this side from attacking outside people very hard sometimes.
![]() 0 Comments Viewed 5214 times Inside ScreamingToday I slept. I woke up different. I felt dizzy upon putting glasses on. I think the prescription is wrong. My allergies are back in a fierce way...rashes even. Would say I might be sick but I know otherwise I feel normal. I don't have any real sense on who s controlling the reins. My memory is shot. I couldn't remember what I had for breakfast. Had to ask coworker about a client remember name but not the other general info. Just that this person is no longer with us. I am easily distracted. I'm not able to stay focused long enough to complete tasks unless my music is blaring. I am feeling a huge increase in anxiet and need to run. A side of me is making a new friend. Positively connected perhaps a partnership. Craving awoke Doritos, Monster drinks and short bread cookies. Took me forever to sign in computer, couldn't remember password connections. Smoking like crazy, barely enough patience to write this let alone spell out full words. Thanking auto correct. My newly adoptive Mum is leaving for a week. Sorta freaking out. Inside screaming and yelling, "Leave me the ###$ alone!" I'm moody and a angry. Left hand more comfortable. Writing this so I can retrace later.
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0 Comments Viewed 5042 times Identities In RelationshipsI lack the ability to choose between being intimate with men or women. I find that it's both, depending on the day. You can't imagine how frustrating that is having to "choose." So ask Pink says, "Do it your way." I am entering a relationship again with two other people. Now the only choice I have to make is the bed to sleep in. No doubt I'm not the only split personality that finds this relationship freedom easier.
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