Hi.... new here and hoping to meet you guys.

I will be sharing the most intimate things about myself in the hopes of finding answers. I'm dealing with repressed and fragmented memories of my abuse. I feel insane at times and that I must purposely be sabtoging my life, marriage, and future.

I'm terrified but determined to share this with someone... all of it, the ugly, bad, and sick parts of myself. I feel like I am going to burst open but am too scared to even do it with a therapist or close friend. I've managed to share bits and pieces of myself with my husband and a few friends but that's not enough for me.

This feels like a good safe and anoyomous place to do so. I hope I am right and it will not bite me in the ass. For the most part I doubt it would be remotely interesting enough to even worry about this. I'm just a boring self-centered 39 yr old housewife.

Hopefully I will be posting in this blog often before I get too scared and stop altogether. In the meantime I would LOVE for you guys to PM me with similar child sexual abused stories or advice to deal with it as an adult.

Oh pls forgive misspells. I can't find a spell checker here and there will be times I'll rush everything out too fast to care how I spell.

I agree with you that this place is fabulous. I was so excited when they added the blog option. I have always thought a blog would be a good place to essentially vommit my crazy thought up and get them out.... except I didn't want to do it where people wouldn't understand and just judge me some more.

I'm so happy you are here. I'm going to subscribe to you if that's okay.

I'm sorry to hear that you are dealing with repressed and fragmented memories of abuse. It is good to see you posting here and hopefully it will be a very healing experience for you...