I am single by choice. I am at peace. I don't want a guy, just to have a guy. There is more that I want and more that I need as a woman. I have friends but it stays there. Why? Because that is what I want.

I've always hated listening about how some men are not good to women. They are jerks, they cheat on them, lie to them, and they can be seen as "trash" in some women's eyes. To each his own. I don't see things that way. Men are sort of like an extension of us, if we are together in a good relationship like marriage. A holy marriage. Men are God's gifts to women. And women are God's gift to men. I love it!

This is a good time for me to show my happiness and excitement in this topic of a relationships between a man and a woman. It hasn't always been this way. What happened???

Well, honesty to a guy. I like you but I am only looking for me to marry if the right guys shows up. That weeds out a lot of people. Honesty the whole time, if you are unsure of how things remain between the two, you can drop the relationship to "friendship only" and let him go. He is always free regardless. A person, whether it's male or female, is always free to choose. Why, even in marriages people choose to leave. It's how it is. Boyfriend and girlfriend relationships, engagements, and even marriages don't guarantee a spouse or boyfriend will stay with you. People stay because they want to. Marriage doesn't guarantee this, it's been shown many times. Honesty helps in more serious relationships but it's very hard on people who go through breakups.

I've learned this and more. On a personal basis and also through literature. It's one thing to read about it, it's another thing to live it. And to come out ok. Life is hard sometimes.

Peace

Life is very good.

Have great friends in my life, including male friends who are strictly platonic.

It feels great to be alive! It feels great to be a woman!

I'm single but I'm happy.

I am doing really good on all fronts in my life.

M has been texting me. Just a little bit. Do I think about him. Hardly. I am reminded of him when I hear from him. I told him we could be friends. We are that, we just never hang out by his choice. I said I would respect his decision. So I don't reach out to him unless he does so, first. It's what he wanted. Now he has to live with that decision. I do miss him a little. I did care about him. He's a nice guy. But I'm ok without him in my life as it has been proven. I'm happy and fulfilled. And I am still in search of my Mr. Right. God bless him, I wish him the best life has to offer.

I am single as in with having guys only as friends. I longed for loving companionship with the opposite sex. So far that hasn't come to fruition. Hope remains. I started out on the wrong foot, with a great-looking guy named T. He was 6' 2" and so handsome. He liked me. He reached out to me on an online dating site. We met in person and he was even more handsome in person. I was thrilled.

Then I met M and that was great. He was in my life for 5 years, off and on. Friends and more. We remain friends but it ends there. He is incapable of more. Just very immature. Some people, men and women, remain immature for life, is my opinion. To their detriment. They cheat or others cheat on them. It's not always pretty. He became violent with another woman and went to jail. Had to pay thousands of dollars to a lawyer to help him out. I knew him before all this happened. And I still cared about him because he messed up one time, but he was a good guy overall. That is why we could be friends. He cared about me too. Everytime we saw each other he reached out to me and gave me a loving kiss. But I moved on. He is still my friend but I don't want more with him. I met other guys in my time I dated. R. Hispanic, and local to the area. A., who was Egyptian. I asked him his nationality. M. who is a great guy and we still keep in touch. I did have one very bad experience. I don't wish to recount this experience because all I can say is that people such as this person exist. Whether they are male or female, it doesn't matter. They are unkind, betray, and do not see any wrong with their behavior. Stay away from someone like this. There are sure signs to alert you to who they are. They only change if they know and acknowledge their wrong, but it won't happen in this lifetime, because they refuse to admit they are bad people to others. I cannot say I came out of this unscathed. It affected me and I am ok now. Just had to let this hurtful experience pass through my life and I came out perfectly ok after it was all said and done.

Now I choose to remain single for the moment. All the wiser and I make good decisions.

There is something I have learned that others have not clue about. I can understand that I, as a woman am important to a man who can see this and who also understands that I am loved by him. All of me, not just my body to be used. Do I give myself up entirely to him. In time. When we have established a relationship where he and I are in a good place to know we exist for each other. Only then. Otherwise, the passion ends quickly like a dry branch burning and disappearing in the ashes. That is how quickly that dies out. That's one mistake I have made in my past. I had an innocent belief that because I care about someone, he could return that same love to me. But men and women are made differently and men at times, by being made differently, cannot respond in the same way. So I am not seen in that same light of love and caring way that I can give a man. Then the rest goes downhill. It's a fact.

But I am a firm believer that Love exists and I am awaiting the right man. M is still in my life and he values me, but I have walked away from "us" and maybe we will try at more in a relationship, in the form of dating again, and we can both decide if it may turn into more. In the meantime, I give him his space to leave things in friendship or see if he is interested in more. And I wait if I meet someone else or if I choose to accept his wish to date again. I take my place in this grand scheme of life. My life.

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