I have no idea what will happen to me.I feel like my life isn't and probably will never be mine. It feels like someone else is driving the wheel. I never feel in control and that devastates me to no end. Well it affects me when I'm not apathetic, which is rare. Somebody/something save me from myself. I keep waiting and nothing happens, no one appears.

Is this my life?

Being on the internet all the time is so unproductive. Once you sit down to use the computer there is no getting up, you can't force yourself away from it. I try to distract myself by reading or drawing but it's no use. It keeps calling me. Mindless internet surfing. I wish I knew how to quit you internet.

I can't count how many times I've felt like this.

I recently moved to the U.S. All that was left behind were my dad, brother and my dog. MY DOG was left behind.****I care more about my dog than my own father. She was my everything when I was living there and I left her. I feel nothing.