Okay, so as everyone who has read this dreaded blog has figured out, I'm obviously not good with words, but yet I can point out things in others writings. Funny and sad how that works out for me.

Anyway, the plot twist, and this was just recently made known to me. Mind you, I just found this out today, but apparently it had happened awhile ago, and from what I recall, I had brought it up myself a couple of times as well. I don't remember it happening.

Anyway, I was told that I had acted like a spoiled child. The things that I was told "Very standoff-ish, throwing a temper tantrum, and being indecisive" were just a few words that were tossed out there. I honestly felt mortified a bit, but I can't say that I can disagree with it.

My partner and I have been together for almost 6 years (as of March 1st, it'll be 6 years). He has always been honest with me, and yet scared and confused. I don't blame him. Even when we first started dating I didn't know anything about my mental health. The fact that he stuck around through what most can barely stand 6 months of? Yeah, that speaks loudly to me.

So, as of this moment, after what I've found out (there is more to this, and I'll probably blog about it), I have at least 6 separate fragments. I can't say this one is a full alter (a majority of mine are not full alters). I already have two co-

I am also not a huge fan of self diagnosis, however, the record that I have looked through with my time with therapists and the like, lead me to believe that one does not wish to let everything out. I'm honestly not sure why. I'm a fairly open book when it comes to things, but things like this seem to cause me to suddenly clam up, and for really no reason that I am aware of.

I am honestly hoping, at least at this point, that it's just a weird version of Bipolar, but now and days, I get scared of even saying anything to a T because often times they tend to feel judgmental to me, even though they say they're not (Let's face it, they do.)

And with this, I will leave it be.

Until next time!