Its been a while, nothing special happened really so far for the new year. With all that has been going on in the world I'm surprised that I lived through the year, but glad to see the closing of another year. A few months ago I had been talking to this girl, and I actually liked her, didn't know exactly what drew me closer to her but it was fun while it lasted I guess. She decided to see some other guy behind my back without telling me for quite some time, I had a feeling I knew what was going on but I decided for the first time to not listen to my gut feeling, to not listen and follow my instincts, to play "the fool" if you will. And for that I have paid the price.

I still don't know the exact reason why I did what I did, maybe it was just to bask in the feelings of happiness for a while I guess or something, with someone that was kinda of, I guess you can say "realistic" about life and how it can turn out. So we decided... well she decided to leave me on new years eve, I didn't ask her to stay or anything its not like I put a ring on her finger, but if that's what she wanted to do, so be it. I learned two thing from this experience, well one very important lesson and that is to never turn away from your instincts, never. Even if you can't follow it to a "tee" at that very moment, never just ignore or forget it, always keep it, not in the back of your mind but in the front of it.

Strange Collage Guy.....the lone wolf at it again.......