I'm serious. I feel like the mood-stabilizers make me gain weight, the adderral makes me lose weight, the kratom makes me crave chocolate, the the pack of cigarettes I smoke each day makes me crave nothing at all--except someone to smoke them with. I have so much to say, but I picked the worst time to blog because my mom and I are watching the original version of the Girl With the Dragon Tattoo. We rarely get a night away from my dad, so I have to continue this tomorrow. Dammit. I wish I spoke Swedish.