Recently I've been feeling so strange! I recently posted a question asking about not seeing myself when I look in the mirror. When I look in a mirror It doesn't feel like a reflection it feels like someone else is standing in front of me. It's really scary and a horrible feeling. I'm afraid to look in a mirror now, I don't mind small hand held ones that only looks at one part of my face at a time just full mirrors.
Since noticing this I realise that when I look at photos of myself I also don't feel like it's me. I know it is but I feels like it's not. I don't really have recent pictures as I don't like having my photo taken.
What is wrong with me? I'm going crazy. I never used to be like this, I used to be happy!

Katrina x

I'm feeling a bit better today as apose to yesterday. I had a bit of a meltdown! Although I still feel that if I was standing at the edge of a cliff I would jump! I was in the car today, a 3hour round trip & the whole time I was constantly thinking about all my flaws and how unhappy I am! I used to think it was normal but I now know it's not. I see happy people all the time and I want to be happy!
So I have decided I am going to speak to my doctor. I'm very nervous about it, but I've got to do it.
I realise that every time I'm On here I never say anything posative, I'm always moaning!
So I have set myself a goal: by the end of the month I want to be writing posative things here! Wish me luck

Katrina x

I'm feeling very lonely at the moment I spoke to my closest friend today and it made me miss her.ive completely isolated my self and I'm scared I'll lose her, I've already lost my two closest school friends!

I really want to tell her what's going on in my head but I don't know how to. And I'm scarred of her reaction. But then a part of me doesn't want to tell her because I'm ebarassed, and I'd rather keep my crazy thoughts to myself.

We live about an hour apart, so I always go through to her house. But this week end she is coming to mine. I'm so worried about going out here as I know a lot of people and I'm worried incase I bump into someone I know. Thats always on my mind when I'm out as I have deteriorated a lot scince seeing people I went to school with. Everyone thought I was ugly then imagine what they would think now!!!!!!

I can't take this anymore. I hate myself!!!!! Why can't it be over???? There's only one way out!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I CAN'T TAKE THIS ANYMORE,!!!! I justvwant to blow up into a million pieces!!! I want this feeling to go away! Why am I like this? I don't know what to do! I. So I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MY SELF

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