The reason I post such long political rants in my blog is because the second I post this $#%^ on Nic's Facebook page, I know were going to be jumped by haters. We live in the second most conservative state in America, trailing behind Louisiana. We literally cannot post what we want on Facebook, for fear of either gaining the wrong friends or losing the ones we've known. Were not 100% sure if thats what would happen, but we'd rather not risk it.

So, we rant here. I personally don't give a $#%^ about if people read them and agree or disagree. Its the fact that I can get my $#%^ out there and at least let people know about my character. I like politics. Its my thing. In fact, I'd be remissed to say I've always loved politics. I always have. My earliest memories involve our mom debating permitting and zoning lines and all that complicated political $#%^ most people never care about. Its in my blood now. Its in my DNA. And I can't share my side of the story in the 2nd most conservative state because, frankly, I'm a liberal. And I'm proud of it, too. ###$ the conservatives. I don't care if most of them are moderates, its the fact that the loudmouths aren't. I know theres a whole thing about "Don't let a few bad apples spoil the bunch" or whatever, but this is MY blog. I can say whatever I want about either side without scrutiny.

One of my posts has over 1K views. No one commented. Good. Frankly, I can never take extreme criticism. I can laugh at regular criticism, and usually I do respect and appreciate it. But the few times people have attacked any of our work, from Nic's films to my political rantings to Zack and TK's drawings or just David being gay, it hurt. And guess what? I can say that here without scrutiny. Because you people understand.

And, best of all,its anonymous. Who knows, maybe a fellow Idahoan is on here with DID, who went to the same schools as us. We may never know! And we really don't care. I blog because its my one true love, and I get to share that with whoever cares. 1K people says to me that theres at least 1 person who cares about my views. Maybe all of them. I really don't know! But if someone out there can like my views and opinions and not comment with a stupid-as-hell "LOL " or whatever, then perfect! I would prefer comments on some things, and when I really need help, I always get it here. But this blog here is just where I vent. I just say "###$ you" to whoever and move on. And if people like it, hey, it works for me! And none of my classmates know its me saying their ideals suck.

What a wonderful world.

-C.Nic

(P.S: Some of you assholes may say "We have freedom of speech, we can post what we want, where we want, whenever we want". Well, guess what? Assholes like you are the ones who say "You have a right to criticize me, its protected by the constitution". And I hate you guys! Just grow some balls for once and say "Shut up" to the criticizer. But don't come after me saying I have the right to say "###$ Conservatives" on Facebook in the Second most Conservative state in ######6 America! Your asking me to get lynched! Ok? I know these people, we've grown up with them. Nic's brother [and JR2] is a conservative. So much so, he dreamed of joining the Army! Your honestly telling me to tell an army brat who dresses like Elton John preforming a concert in Watts or Harlem that his ideals suck? People have the right to their opinions, and for now I'm keeping mine under wraps.)

This is why Occupy Wall Street will fail:
http://i.imgur.com/5KhXK.jpg
Its fake. No wall street employee writes this good. I have met some of them, both in economics classes and just casually (I'll get to that idiot in a second). They're all "Bros", all of them. Even the older, 50 year old gentlemen. They're more like the cook uncle that gets you beer because that's what he did when he was their age, but that doesn't make them English scholars. On the other side, you have a bunch of overeducated protesters protesting everything Wall Street, some who attened Liberal Arts colleges and watch Rachael Maddow while jerking off, completely forgetting the fact that they're after the wrong ######6 people! They should be after the legislators who got rid of the Glass-Stegall Act, who sold out the people and gave the bailout money in the first place, and not after the banks who did, in fact, pay the money back! They, in their education, have become ######6 stupider than a guy who would proudly call himself a teabagger!

Nic was editing video in Mr. B's class in April (2011), when a Wall Street trader talked to Mr. B. They were apparently friends. Mr. B had taught Nic some basic Stock Trading moves, but Nic didn't have the $1K deposit needed to make an account. Mr. B, in his "BRAH" lingo, asked Nic if he wanted cocaine as a response. And he didn't even say "I was just kidding" afterward, so... there is that.

That story is a lie, actually. But I have heard a friend say this happened, and I do trust him, so odds are good a Wall Street "Brah" offered him coke. The whole thing about Mr. B and Nic with stocks? 100% true. Invest in Krispy Kreame, by the way. It may not pay off in the end, but stockholders used to get a free box of 12 glazed doughnuts if your stock was over $100.

Again, it was a lie, like that stupid little note. You actually believe that a group producing people who (And you do know its true) uses high end Prostitutes and cocaine can write with proficient grammar or spelling? Or even know what proficient means?

I know there is most likely some kind of lone stock trader on the floor who isn't a "Bro". But I bet $2 in an IRA with 4.2% compound intrest that man doesn't exist. They're all "Bros", and they're all stupid. NO ONE, NOT EVEN THE BOSSES, HAVE THE TIME NOR THE ATTENTION SPAN TO WRITE A 5-10 PARAGRAPH NOTE DISSING THE MIDDLE CLASS, THEN TO PASS THEM AROUND. It had to be someone on the inside.

And, so, with this note, the OWS hipsters have proven that they are almost exactly like the tea party: they have wild, crazy-ass ideals with facts that back said ideals 100%, they have a "protest", and they are now making $#%^ up. The tea party had the birther movement, OWS has the fake quotes. And it will get worse and worse and worse, until they fade into obscurity with one guy making crazy claims that piss off the other side. The right has Rush Limbaugh, we have... I don't know. But she will emerge. And it will be a woman, by the way. Just trust me, I know.

This picture is also a threat to Obama. The SECOND that these people gain any actual political power, they compromise everything. The presidency of John Tyler, our 10th president, started when the 9th President, President William H. Harrison, died. President Tyler, then our 9th Vice President, became the President almost immediately. And guess what? The cabinet quit. And they threw him out of the party. So he created a third party (Literally, it was the Whigs and Bull-somethings), and won the presidency over for a full 4 years. History is doomed to repeat itself, and it has with Obama, and will again in the future. The GOP pushed too hard for Obama to lose, and has guaranteed his re-election. Between now and a year from now, the GOP will only get more and more extreme and insane. And people are already watching the GOP candidates and thinking "What the ###$ are they thinking?! That $#%^ will never work!!!"....

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It seems whenever I do rants, they get over 300+ views, and I like knowing that somewhere, I'm destroying a LiveJournal by about 50 people. ###$ YOU, LIVE JOURNAL! YOU NEVER LET ANYONE READ DR. POQUES BLOG ANYMORE!!!

Anydoozle, were typing this thingy up at College, CWI Nampa campus to be more specific. And I love this ######6 place. I LOVE it. But yet, I can't seem to find the motivation to get the work done. I don't know why, I like the professors here and such, but the second I have to go online and write a term paper on why people don't vote for Poly Sci or what igneous rocks are for Phys Geo, I go to sleep. Fast.

Why the ###$ does this happen? Because, even though every 60 year old with white as cocaine hair saying "I had 156 credits in the end of my educational career" has told us we need to study because its the #1 thing, I have an even bigger issue: Money. How the ###$ are we supposed to pay for our education, $7K on a medical bill & housing, utilities and Netflix when NO ONE (And I MEAN NO ONE) can find a job anymore?

Now part of this group is pure lazy jackasses. My partner, Travis, has a Rite Aid application filled out and sitting in his truck. He only filled it out to get his dad off his ass. Nic, out of the kindness of his heart, is paying Travis to work for him, $50 bucks a month, or half of what he earns filing invoices for his mom at her business! And he's not even ######6 trying! And all he spends his share on his gas! THATS IT! Not even lunch or milk or Netflix or nothing! Just ######6 gas! We gave him $20 yesterday to take some stuff up to the dump, like a couple old TVs and some unused paint cans. ALL OF IT, PLUS THE CHANGE LEFT OVER FROM THE DUMP WENT TO ######6 GAS!!! If he had a ######6 job, he could just get the gas and be done with it.

The problem is that no one who runs these places that used to hire kids like Travis and us out of High School are weary of hiring anybody else because were in a ######6 recession! They don't want to hire someone who can't spell "$#%^" right. And frankly, I don't blame them. Most of our ex-classmates in High School? ######6 morons! And only the kids with rich parents who have connections have decent jobs. The lucky few with normal, middle class parents got work at the new Kohls or at a dollar store, but thats it.

Russia Today had an article in 2010 about how the recession will ###$ up kids my age more than anybody else. They were right, and its because everyone is stupid and doesn't trust anybody anymore. The adults think the kids are morons (And I agree with 75% of them, but that still leaves 25% capable of pulling $#%^ off), and the kids are watching congress fight over Cement Pollution bills, thinking "What the ###$! Were ###$ forever! Thanks, assholes!" There is no winner because winners take sides. There is no bi-partisanship ever. Nic wants to try that with Journalism, be as unbiased as possible, well, it won't work. People will always have biases. Republicans hate abortion, Democrats hate anti-unions like the Coke brothers or whoever the new GOP flavor of the day is.

The simpliest reason for youth like us struggling, above all else, is trust. You do not trust us with the forethought needed to understand the tax code, so we don't know what Schedule Y is. We do not trust them with any money at all, so why should we be taxed? Or, in my case, why the ###$ should I care about them at all? The population grew 1 Billion people in 12 years, we need people (I hate saying this) dying or else we'll all be ###$ and be back to the jungle days, killing each other for food. And then the youth will win, cause they can run faster.

What I really want to say is the youth no nothing, and its the elders fault. The best conversations I have with my mother these days is when I ask her about the tax code or how she filed for business or how to get insurance, or what the difference is between rent and a mortgage, or what utilities are covered under...

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Season 1, Episode 7 of Psych is about a guy with DID. Its ######6 awesome. It really is. And a lot more realistic than most shows. Not 100%, but pretty damn close. Also, some mockery of cops. So, thats there, too.

Who knew that a damn good show like this could have an episode on our disorder. Its amazing to me. Wow.

-C.Nic

Its been two weeks since my last urge to kill. I feel like I'm on the road to recovery, and at the same time that people keep staring at me and secretly judging me. Must be withdrawals. Oh well, C'est La Vie.

We have found more evidence that we were raped even more, 15 times between the ages of 12-14. I don't personally remember a damn thing, but the evidence is there, and its damning. We went into the garage across the street where the old memories of rape took place and found our abusers old gardening gloves which he wore during. Fun stuff.

I seriously don't remember feeling anything but cold gloves on my hips. Thats it. Nothing more. And its uncomfortable. But I really don't care about it anymore. I really don't. This isn't the abused forgiving the abuser in some Oprah, awe-inspiring hypocritical #######4. I just have more important things to do than focus on being raped.

Anyhow, we think this is why Zack was so scared about having AIDS; not from our ex, but from our abuser, who were pretty damn sure never wore a condom. We don't have it, we have the American Red Cross to thank for that. Frankly, at this time, I'm just looking to either get laid or get a job I'll actually enjoy. Oh well. C'est la Vie.

-C.Nic