Well I went to my friends place and had a lovely time. Life never ceases to amaze me with what it throws up. Instead of my friend grilling me (like I thought she was going to do), she spoke about her daughter's battle with depression and how it's all in her head! I was like .
I made the decision to keep my mouth shut about my health and chose not to defend her daughter's journey. I didn't feel strong enough for my diagnosis to be invalidated and I had none of the facts regarding her daughter's illness or experiences. I think it is ironic that the younger woman with mental health issues has shied away from a friendship with me - and her mother who is so averse to mental health issues has warmed to me. Life is soooo full of irony!!

no afence hun. but no wonder with a mother not suportive to her daughter it wouldnt help the daughter with her depression nowing she cant go to her mum for suportand help. well my old best friend im not even going to call her my best friend cos she dosnt deserve to be called that. we use to do every thing to gether and shear so many secrets. wed been friends as long as i can remember our perents were friends i remember her as a baby. any way ill get to the pint she dosnt belive in mental illness just just dosnt understand she says look at my life and up bringing and im not depressed she just has no idear about it or what shes doing when she says that to me. her parents were alcoholices. my dad would pick her up and drop her off at ours on weekends so she could get away from them lol. so much we help her in her teens and she dosnt even have the time or day for me i dont now why. she says she works and is tied she dose work hard but then she gose and put pics up on face book of her been out on weekends getting pissed. so she has time 4 that and not me. i stoped worrying about her a long time ago and so did my husband. non of my friends understand. there like yer and then quickly change the subject to them. there selfish. my husband is the only one that seem to try understand and hes never had depression well at least he tries. and it is hard not being able to talk to thows ones the most your friends.

I'm sorry your "friend" chose to act like that babygirl. You have every reason to be hurt. I love how you are still able to count your blessings, and are grateful for the loving relationship you have with your husband, despite the sadness in other areas of your life. It's a real challenge to accept and validate the sadnesses for ourselves and evenly balance them with the wonderful things that we all do have in our lives, doncha reckon?

thats why i think i try to keep bizzy when i have the energy to because when i dont and i stay home i get lonley and when i get like that i get depressed. see im figuring out symtoms slowley. i offten sit up strees by my self and have coffee lol like a loner . i was a bit moody last night lol but it was irratabilaty. but seem ok still when gym and when and showered a client and now at home .

yeah, keeping busy is a really good way to deal with loneliness. I feel lonely a lot too, but find it overwhelming to function in social situations on an ongoing basis. I also find that coming here where it is it safe helps. It seems here having multiple dx's of bipolar, bpd and ptsd is really helpful coz I can relate to a broad range of people lol. I've just sent another message to get involved in general mental health group in my area. I was very unwell and in hospital last time our appointment came up, so I tried again today. It's consumer run so between them and me we haven't been able to follow through on a time in 9 months . Gym can be great for irritability. Personally I find gentler stuff like yoga and tai chi helps with irritability. We are all different . Hugs to you and I hope you have a lovely day x

yer i get restlass and my atention span isnt very long lol. so yaga wouldnt probably suit me but then i haven even tryed it so i can say. im fine with people i know and work clients but say like if were foof shoping and i get a mood shiff i go into a sweat and we have to go cos i just want to go home lol. it realy bugs me when that feeling come and ruins every thing.