This time I'll put the list in some kind of life experience order
Drug experimentation(Adolescence) Pot, Hash, Mushies, Trips, Speed and Alcohol(started age 14)
Confusion
Paranoia
Possible brain damage
Social Anxiety Disorder
Obsessive thought patterns
Laughed at
Loss of confidence
Friendships lost (Avoided friends due to low self esteem)
Trouble starting worthwhile relationships
Self medication with alcohol
Constant sadness and regret inside(want to be the old me)
Struggle at every job due to Social Anxiety(never sacked though/good work ethic)
Many years of life wasted
Developed a very real empathy for others who suffer from mental disorders
Depression last year( I never thought I would consider suicide so seriously)
Change of location
Back with loved ones
On medication that works for me
Enjoying every day I can with wife and children
Don't ever give up, all you people out there struggling from day to day, don't EVER give up.Ok?......
Good luck guys and girls.