I am a little creeped out i just logged in on my facebook account and discovered that my ex had been on it!

Facebook suggests friends and it was on this list that i found him. After googling around i found out that FB can suggest people who have been on your account.

It creepes me out because he didn`t know my new last name which i changed after i had left him, so i wonder how he found it.

I know he came to my profile to say that "i found you". He is a creepy bastard and i don`t like him!

I have blocked him but i must say that it really creepes me out that he has secretly been able to follow me for as long as i have had the account.

Any suggestions to what i should do?

So this train is going slower for some reason

We have autumn at our backs and it is making us norwegians more depressed, even if the weather is presumed to be warmer then normal for some days to come(which is good cause we had frost some nights ago).
Nobody can lock out the frost.

When i am insecure i wonder what i should do about it? I know that i have many things i should "tidy" up in from my past and that this would take a lot of effort, so i ignore it instead.

It seems worthless at the same time as i know it has some importance to me, so i wonder and speculate if i should do something about that?

I have already started a round of complaints to some people but i get sent to other offices and so it seems relentless.

Also i should do more exercise...

Something terrible happened in the social group that i was in, i have written something about it a few blogs ago. Well it all ended with me leaving the group.

It got to stupid to stay in a group when the group leaves me at a place. I don`t think that is how a group should be, if you are a group of people you should stay like that until the trip is over, you shouldn`t go away from others and expect them to find you somewhere else later.

I am really disappointed.
I know this has something to do with my secret stalker too, because he has shown jealousy several times towards me, for going on trips with this group.
He has also shown jealousy or the need for controlling me every time i have tried to do something.
He wants us to have a connection with each other online, so if i don`t write something because i am too busy he gets envious and paranoid. I wrote something about my stalker yesterday but today that comment is gone?
It looks like someone has deleted it?

Some men will marry, some are just merry....?

Taking the shift on the maiden voyage is not so easy, you have waves that hit you hard and a floor that keeps on moving.

I stole an idea once to get over the storm does that make me a cheater?

If a tree falls over a lake in the storm does anybody notice it?

Rambling my way threw life`s challenges without a map...

The tree was old and the storm knew it had to be taken down, it did what humans couldn`t do, for some reason.

Why couldn`t it take down empires that shouldn`t be or mistakes that were wrong or train tracks going to the wrong places?


Jealousy has long arms its tentacles reaches further then its body, it gets to places even when its not physically there.
Like light in the darkness.

You are jealous i know and maybe you have good reason for it, after all i promised you many things in the start. I promised you eternal forgiveness(whatever that is today? and understanding, loyalty and acceptance. I also promised you a way out of your own misery. Time has shown that there is no way out, although i wished there was a man at the end of that tunnel showing me it.

He would stand there with a light so strong that i could manage to get out of the darkness.

That would have been nice, i am just saying.

I know i have abilities.

Not all walks are easy...tonight i had a heavy walk on my "walk of lights". Yes i signed up for a walk down a torch lit river, an event that takes place in my city only once a year.
I had never been on this event before so i looked forward to it but then i got away from my group and it all turned up to be miserable.

Actually the group knew all the time where i was but they couldn`t care less or bother to come and look for me so they just left me.

A walk that should be enlightening and nice turned out to be more like a hell stride

The walk literally became "light" as it was much shorter then what i had expected it to be, since i lost my entire group and couldn`t find them again in the mass

The shittiest thing is that we were all standing at a entertainment point by the river where there was a coffee shop..the entertainment was about to start and i thought we were going to stand there and look at it, so i took the time to go for a coffee(the cofoholic as i am ). I told another member that i was going to the coffee shop and she promised to wait for me.

The cue was long inside the coffee shop and when i came out again(into the mass of people), my group had already gone

She had left me with out as much as trying to find me inside that one and only coffee shop

Communication gets difficult because of people like her!

You know that great illusion that everybody cares about you is just that! An illusion! And that feeling of "love in the air"..well that`s just pollution!