3 dl oatmeal porrige
2 dl protein drink
0,25 dl olive oil

Total: 670 kcal,

in front of me. This is breakfast. Starting a new period ahead which means treating body and soul in the best way. To give me new reasons to be proud, as to balance with negative self-thoughts that will arise.

Yesterday I pushed myself a little too hard, which is common at start when motivation is sky high. A little too heavy weight-lifting and a little too much running from a long period of rest. It left me not only unable to eat anything (which contributes even more to the exhaustion cycle) for the rest of the day, but also left me flat out on my bed from 4 pm, with migraine, dehydration, yet inability to sleep until early this morning. It was a bad experience, like a really bad hang over.
Well, the thing about working out is to feel more energetic and experience a higher state of well-being, is to eat properly. A strict low calorie diet is a hard struggle, against your body's needs, against your hunger. That is nothing I am intending of doing. I know this is not a fitness forum, but I will keep down my thoughts on my progresses here in any case, as it is linked with my general mental state.

I am going to eat A LOT. I am going to work out HARD. I am going to run FAR. This will supply my body with all necessary nutrients, set my metabolism going, plus the running will provide that extra fat burning, the result factor, which we also need to continue to be motivated. If you are interested to know I will eat no less than 2300 calories, and try to keep a 4-5 day/week workout plan. Trust me, eating 2300 calories worth of HEALTHY food is NOT easy.

Main aim is to maintain discipline. Discipline is important in our lives, especially when we are adults with jobs, schools, children and other tasks that needs to be done, no matter what.
The key is PLANNING. With the right planning anything is possible. In the weekend I have made food enough to cover my 5 day need of the week. Cooked and portioned.

I will also try to enjoy, even if at the beginning workout is more pain than pleasure. But it will catch up, as I feel more strength, and more energized.

I have no particular goal for now, just to practice a disciplined life, to remind myself that I can still do anything if I just fight hard for it.
Better defined muscles are of course welcome But I do not want to focus on that kind of goal that takes focus from the long road leading there.

I owe this to myself now that I have been upset and disappointed with myself for a long time.

To add, I am a normal weight, average height. This is not as much a "biggest looser" thing as it is a discipline challenge.

My biggest challenge at the moment is how to get all this food down my throat. I know it will get easier with time, as the metabolism will increase, so will also my hunger. Plus, high metabolism also makes you warmer, and thats just perfect considering the cold season we are now going into