I'm terrified right now.

I was invited to a party a few eeks ago and tonight is the night.

I haven't been around in 'people' in so long (without my kids) and now that I'm in this process of change I'm affraid of what I'm gonna do and if I'll be able to handle it.

I went out to to a Pub last light with a new friend I met online; but that was different because we share mental illness in common (something thatbrought us together actually) and we could talk openly about our nervousness being in public and our issues, etc... I didn't feel like I had to fit in and confrom; but tonight is different and I'm scared

I don't really want to go- but I'm supposed to get and meet people (as per my therapist) so I'm trying to force myself to go
Ugh!

I really just wanna crawl in bed and forget it- this is so fu*king HARD to go out around people- I don't like it at all grr........

I hate this
FML

Last night was awsome, and I did steal the show (I was hoping not to, because I didn't want to do that- but it is what it is I guess) not on purpose, but whatever...

I'm glad I went because I met some great new people and had a blast.

It was hard in the beginning; but once the party started rolling- it was just fine

Baby steps...