I want this to stop. I just want it to stop. I don't know what to do. I just hurt and I want it to stop. I'm also keeping in so much ######6 anger. I'm constantly flipping between anger and hopeless depression. I can not express this anger and it's driving me ###$ CRAZY. I am invalidated and ######6 not listened to and always the bad guy. I can't even ######6 move. I'm being bullied. I can't express my emotions cause my emotions are wrong. People are treating me like I am a piece of ######6 $#%^ on the ground. MY EMOTIONS ARE ###$ WRONG... I HAVE TO SIT HERE AND PRETEND TO BE OK BECAUSE I AM NOT ALLOWED TO FEEL ######6 DEPRESSED OR SAD OR ANGRY!!!!! HOW DARE IIIIIIII FEEL ANGRY!!!!! I FEEL LIKE IM GOING TO END UP HURTING SOMEONE ELSE OR HURTING MYSELF. I'M LIKE A ######6 CAGED LION. NOT JUST CAGED BUT MY LIMBS ARE TIED TO THE GROUND AND MY MOUTH IS GLUED TOGETHER SO I CAN NOT EVEN ROAR!!!!!!

I just want to get ######6 drunk, ######6 absolutely pissed, I wana go crazy. I'm holding in S O M U C H. I'm going to end up hurting someone else or hurting myself. I'm gunna end up having a breakdown. MY EVERY MOVE IS CONTROLLED. MY EVERY ######6 MOVEEEEE.