Well hello again psych forums.
My life in the past 2 years has had so much drama that none would probably believe my story.
I have grown a lot and learned a lot. But here I am. Again. Traumatised. Helpless. Hurt.
I am now pretty sure that in addition to my other issues I have complex Ptsd and at the very least, extremely unhealthy levels of narcissism bordering on full blown NPD. And also BPD of course. Hooray.
I want to get into another relationship as soon as possible.
I am just a numb void. My moods are fluctuating like craaaaaaaazy. I'm getting better at predicting the swings though. Feeling quite down and empty and numb right down despite running around and singing at the top of my voice dancing like a maniac all day.
The numbness is pretty all consuming right now though so I suspect I'll be on the ceiling again later.
Think I'm gunna hang out on here for a bit again, if only to speak to like minded people who understand and just express my thoughts/keep a record of what's going on.
I've taken some painkillers which are now kicking in quite nicely so I shall be going to sleep now.
Will report back tomorrow if I am sober enough which is highly unlikely.
Hello warm fuzzy numbness.