Just tried to post my complaint letter trying to get off anitpsychotics and getting nowhere fast, all I like to do is talk about my spiritual perceptions, it was too long to be allowed...not sure what I am gonna get at by writing this blog entry, just complaining about not doing anything anynore lost all my taoist philosophies tahta kept me in good nick, remember about the mysterious function of No-MInd that I seemed to fully grasp and live in meditative state living...I got ruined by psychiatry, they gave me a drug that ###$ my thinking up some benzo. i had only just been remembering nearly dieing for refusing medication in psych ward and something they injected me with made my tongue contort down my windpipe after contorting my whole body.....so they gave me this drug and it ###$ me up right before being seen by psychiatrists that said I was paranoid about the medi9cation and complained about the blocked thinking, it had made me pass out and I had faught this off having a paradoxical reaction and agitated about my ruined mind, I used to have a taoist mind highly evolved and aware of its functioning and believe me when sleep deprived fighting off a coma from their drugs seriously ###$ the mind up,

So thats about one area I want an appology from the metanl health service..that particular story turns out the antipsychotic just ###$ me up enough that I wouldn't find a problem with beno's anymore its hard to describe what antipsychotics do so I won't even bother as IT probaly wouldn't make any sense....I know it was a problem on respiridone where I had an anurism or a stroke and lost my vocabulary and couldn't think of words and silent patches in my speech like a stutter and they said this was all symptoms as usual...I deserve an appology about that aswell......

So thats what I am going for but probably because my complaint letters get so long nobody will consider it and I won't get acknowlegemtn from the service thata they got me wrong and destroyed my good life and religious path...being obstructed from this path that includs astral visitations and projections all accross the universe makes it a problem withdrawing from antipsychotic to return to spritual evolution, it has drastic consequences making up for lost time on antipsychotic and return to places of emotional turmoil indicating karmic flaws in this incarnation that must be overcome so as living with this principle taht I never be born again and deal with all my mysterious karmic debits, stuff I need to learn abbout , it comes into having astral representations of peopple, once family went into pergatory, and then other people went to purgatory and I overlooked it, I have higher privaleges then my family perhaps indicating how I evolved from my upbringing and into a new world of my own with its own ideals, just my family challenged me as being uwell for challenging them and creating a symbiotic fluctuation in the metnal plane where I would be the scapegoat living out toxic worlds of inherited doom, it was evil to me and I wanted the bliss of perfection and new a better way then they did, I got ###$ over but my family is still there not realising I haave bbeen destroyed from the drugs they are giving me. They helped me move and feel like it was their mentality that had me fall back into psychaitry they felt at ease when I am in treatmetn it seems, they really shouldn't be feeling lke that though, its a real opiate for them...can't complain enough, the anitpsychootic has me dumbed to the resentmetns I have with them so I am nice so they think I am good, no just a zombie with nothing to say or contribute, mostly my mum calls me and says a lot and I just go yeha right ok yes no so forth, nothing happening this end seeya later at last she is gone.

Won't go on about it..just felt like a rant...sorry I missed the best details in previous posts, i put some details inthe comments of those updates if you will. like how I met the offspring of the incident with a goddess, in my astral voyage of 2013 that an astral lover sparked me to get back into quick while I had time refusing my injjection...the astral lover is also a celbrity or I get confused and think all the lovers that visit me are her and she used to shapeshift into costumes I seen her ware or other stuff like she would staay with me this time, other times I lost her when I went to psych ward...actually this lover might have contributed to getting me off a safe religious path but very tantric to have an astral lover, maybe its part of my evolution to be able to have one and it offered me much in the way of transformation and bliss all good and much fun..now I just listen to the album she released in 2013 that says her "Legendary Lovers" was one she sore looking so clearly through her third eye or haowever she puts it, good karma that we brought together aand introduced her to feeling angelic and finding nirvarna, its all mutual belive me...I like the album its called Prism.

Haa. thats my entertainmetn anyway, I like to listen to the album and remeber, its not as good as if I was off anitpsychotic and could get into remebering it like one song remids me of when we met, I think actually about this as I met her first off flying beside herm airoplane and she looking out the window with what I guess this "International Smile" is, remember her trying to get me to contribute to the music in this song I think it happens, it was really awkward I remeber but sounds good.

I went on about the celebrity until I met my bride in another part of the universe she is treating me very well.