Last night I decided to turn my life around. Instead of obsessing over a boy, I am going to become more like him. I am going to study and do my homework and stuff. I went to my class today, and though it was practically unbearable I stayed for the duration. I will also go to my other class today.

I also applied for a job, and I kind of feel good about my chances of getting it.

I realized, the boy I like does homework all the time and he seems content. If I did well in school, I would seem like a success and people would congratulate me on everything I earn. There are certain behaviors which always work, like doing your homework and getting a job, and if I do them, people will respect me more. It will also kill some of the anxiety I feel about getting kicked out of school.

Also, homework and work could serve as a distraction from him and help me meet more people in the long run.

I hope I can stick to this.