Ever since I read The Hunger Games, I've had a fascination with the character Glimmer. The first poem I ever wrote and read to an audience was actually about her, and the praise I got from it is what inspired me to keep writing. Poetry is really the only interest of mine that hasn't wavered since.

Anyway, I think I like Glimmer because she is very consistent with the HPD prototype. She doesn't last long in the games, but the memory of her death haunts the protagonist for the rest of the series.

I embody a lot of her characteristics as kind of my last resort, or when I'm feeling desperate. I become extra flirtatious and outgoing and usually it's successful in getting me some temporary security. Today, as I was listening to the playlist I made, that was inspired by Glimmer, I began to think of how I could go about my life in a way that was emulative of her.

And I couldn't think of one way that wasn't what I was already doing--groveling through each day on empty promises and praises from guys. But then I thought of reality TV. I love reality TV. Survivor has always been a favorite of mine, but this past summer made me really like Big Brother, too. Because of some health issues, Big Brother is by default the show I could get on more easily.

And The Hunger Games is partially inspired by reality television. Glimmer was a career tribute, meaning she spent her entire life training to compete in the games. And that's kind of what I've been doing, though preconsciously. I've been fostering a personality that is entertaining for the masses.

So when I'm 21, I'm going to go to open casting calls for Big Brother and show them what I've got. I think I will seem unique to them. I don't care about winning. All I care about is the attention I would get, and the competition aspect of the show. I would obviously prefer to go far into the game, but I ultimately would be willing, if not eager, to join an alliance that only intended to get me fourth place. The attention and notoriety would be worth it. I'll be sensational.

Until I'm 21, I'm going to prepare my pitch and the persona I want to convey.