So I just got off the phone with the people i want to represent me for my disability case and i am screwed. There's no way i'll ever get a doctor to sign off on me not being able to work. They'll take one look at me and go? "What's stopping you?" This means I can't stop my meds. I have to be compliant. So maybe I'll just go to the doctor, get the pills, but not take them. As long as it looks good on paper i'm golden.

And there's no point in even telling them about my new therapist, because he doesn't write anything down. So basically, I'm screwed, no one will represent me because no doctor will get behind me. I am screwed. I am doomed to be broke and live with my parents forever.

Aside from being completely screwed i'm still fairly stable, not feeling depressed nor manic at the moment. Hoping this will change soon because I could use a little excitement. Soon enough I think. After my geodon levels go down a little. They're too high to be unstable right now.