I saw my therapist again yesterday. We talked of how I need friends and general social integration. He's still learning about me. He's digging for my past traumas. I don't really have any except one. And I couldn't tell him about it. Even though he dug so hard for it. I know what he wants to hear. He wants to hear that I was sexually abused as a child, and how that royally screwed me up. I'm a 21 year old cutter virgin. I think it screwed me up plenty.

That's what he wants to hear. He'll have to dig harder if he wants the truth. Because I'd really rather not talk about it. Next appointment is on the 15th. Hopefully the conversation is better.

On another topic. I'm feeling stable. Sleeping ALOT. I think I just slept 12 hours. Which is so nice. Because I've been dreaming lately. So I just keep sleeping through the dream until it ends. I slept until 5pm yesterday chasing one of my sleep dreams. That was about 16 hours of sleep! And then I went to bed at 11pm. But its such a nice change from hardly sleeping at all to oversleeping.

But it can't stay that way. I need to sleep less and be more productive. I should read or something. Like volunteer or anything really.