I see my new therapist tomorrow, and I need to go in for pre-op surgery also. I'm not excited about surgery in the least. It looks so scary!! Its funny, I can cut myself no problem, but I don't want a doctor to cut into me for surgery. He'll be cleaner and actually stitch it!!! At least I get to be drugged out for it. Other than that my life is slowly coming back together I think. Hopefully. Maybe it's still falling apart?? haha. I don't know at this point whether it's still falling apart or not. Only my final grades in my classes will tell. I did well in my slot class and should get a B or C in my gaming management class. As for spanish, maybe a B or C, and History i'm just hoping to get above a C. I really have to do well on that test, I need to study. I did well for the midterm but the teacher says the final will be much harder. And i slept through most of his classes these last few weeks, so i need to study what he covered. I'm fortunate he gave a final exam review with all topics to be covered. That way i can just go through the notes and fill it out. I stopped cutting! I feel like the damage I did to myself will suffice for now. So, thats a bonus! I just hope I don't become suicidal again, because that will mean definite hospitalization. I promised i would hospitalize myself before I attempted again. To not hurt my family.