Our introduction

First posts tend to be introductions in one form or another, but I must say, this is the first time I've had the opportunity to introduce us as a multiple.

I am known as Naurore, and as I will be the one primarily posting here, we all agreed to use my name for the account. I generally take a background support role but have fallen more and more into a secondary host role while our main host regains her balance.

Our host usually goes by the name of Kat, a shortened version of our official/legal name. Recently she is considering taking on a new name as she goes through an identity crisis questioning whether she is our core/original.

We are physically about to turn 28, in the third trimester of our first and possibly only pregnancy, have two energetic step-sons to care for, and a husband who works over the road and sadly is not available for much emotional support.

I have been around for at least two decades that any of us are aware and tend to be the one that keeps everyone sorted. I do not consider myself to be any particular age, because a numerical value determined by planetary rotation does not seem like much of a defining factor to me.

Within our system there are approximately half a dozen others besides myself and Kat, though as some have gone quiet or become observers over the years, it can be hard to determin.

Recently one has shown up seeming "new" but I am quite sure she has simply remained repressed in the background for many years. She identifies herself as Puki and tends to be very playful and innocent in most ways, though shows signs of a libido active enough to disqualify her from being considered a "Little" per se. However, her vulnerability and sensitivity are on the level of a barely prepubescent child, so we mostly consider her a Little anyways.

Another that has been more on the active side goes by the name Yamai, a Japanese name suggesting she considers herself some sort of disease or plague. She tends to be very bleak, bitter, and cruel. She will resort to extreme measures in the name of self preservation and considers herself a protector. Because she can be unreasonably forceful, we usually do what we can to keep her restrained.

The others in our system have been rather quiet lately, some only come out when needed, while others have backed off slowly throughout the pregnancy.

We have not been diagnosed, as Kat is beyond paranoid when it comes to any sort of T and was reluctant to even join this forum, as she felt it "exposes us" too much. She will not be honest with any doctor unless it is for the health and safety of her children. Her primary fear is being labeled a "crazy person" and getting locked away in a mental facility. No one, in or our of our system, has ever been able to reassure her on this point.

Welcome here This is a great place to get and give support

This was a very interesting read - thank you for sharing about your system with us.

Hi, welcome Congratulations on your pregnancy, I hope things go well for you.

Thank you for the welcomes, glad to be here. We look forward to learning more about DID in general, as well as understanding our own internal dynamic through the experiences of others.

~Naurore

hello and welcome! i hope you find this place helpful!


these threads might be of interest to you:


this thread has resource websites along with organized threads from this forum that talk about discovery experiences, common questions, communicating with alters, memory issues, therapy issues, conflicts within the system, relationship stuff, doubt/denial issues, understanding and working with alters, how to help alters (with stuff like anger, depression, etc), about alters/systems, about inner worlds, and more:
-- DDNOS/DID Resources: http://www.psychforums.com/dissociative-identity/topic100829.html


this thread focuses more on the "causes" of DID, DID development, switching/co-consciousness/co-hosting, doubt/denial, has a couple good threads on communicating/understanding/accepting/working with alters, and has threads about animal/otherkin alters and polyfragmented systems:
-- For all who question how they have DID/think their's is odd: http://www.psychforums.com/dissociative-identity/topic104081.html


thank you for sharing about yourselves! it was nice to read.


- cassie (age ?)

Welcome :3

tomboy24 wrote:hello and welcome! i hope you find this place helpful!


these threads might be of interest to you:

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- cassie (age ?)

Thank you for the links, I had already found one of those, though not the other. I look forward to seeing the rest, Cassie.


Due to nagging from our background I wish to also expand on one of our other selves I had not already introduced, as he has not surfaced at all lately but remains active in the background.

His reasoning for not fronting is quite understandable. He is our only known male aspect, and can become rather uncomfortable in our shared female body. When we became pregnant, this became even more difficult for him. As he puts it, it's one thing to be missing his manly parts, another to have breasts (which he at least finds appealing at times) but having a living squirming child growing inside is just more than he wants to deal with. He is oddly quite interested in our physical appearance and helps in giving a man's view of how we look, but actually being pregnant is disturbing to him. He loves kids, and is quite pleased with the idea of a baby after its out, he just isn't comfortable feeling it inside.

I am quite sure that once our daughter joins us in the world, Aleck will return as well. For now, he is content to pipe in occasionally from the background and frankly I think he is just restless and seeking more attention.

~Naurore

Hi and welcome