Friendship vs Love

You're right, all you can do now is talk to her. I really hope it goes well for you since we've talked about it so much. I'm glad that you'll respect her decision. If you want to talk about it more, just come back and we'll listen.
Keep us posted.

Yesterday had asked her when will she able to meet me. She has not yet replied.
Today is her birthday. We(me and a common friend), wished her and celebrated. Gave her a gift. She was cheerful as always. And she noticed me being sad and asked me what's wrong. As it was her birthday, i did not want to ruin her day, I said its nothing. Will wait till tomorrow. If she doesn't get back means, i guess i have to forget her.

Don't panic now, not replying could mean anything, particularly on her birthday. Give her a chance to think about it and respond. If it happens repeatedly however, you might have to re-consider. Just give her the time she needs rather than forget her.
Hope it still goes well for you. Be patient, keep calm and carry on until the time is right.

Don't know what to say guys. I really feel ashamed of what i did yesterday. I acted hastily and now i think i just made my situation worse. I waited till late night for her reply. Then i again asked her, when we can meet. She did not reply even after 30 msgs. She didnt even pick my call. I had called about 20 times. Sometimes i could hear busy tone. In the morning i continued calling her. After 20 calls later, she said and i quote " Why are you disturbing me so much. I had said to you yesterday i was busy. I just woke up now.". I apologized and after couple of msgs asked her when we can meet or did she wanted to end our friendship. She ended it.

I think she was really angry at me for calling her so many times and sending back-to-back msgs. She never really ended the thing between us when i had given her an option to do so, the previous week. She even said she did not want to end it once. I now feel i myself made her end it.

She could have said that she was busy or something. But she did not reply to me yesterday whole day. It would have taken just 10 seconds to end it. But she never ended it. And goes on to say i'm disturbing her.

Even after what she has done, i have no anger towards her. My love for her has not reduced by even a tiny percentage. I don't know what to do.

1. I could wait for few more weeks. Let her come to her senses and then ask her one last time.
2. I can try to forget her, which would make me remember her more. It sucks.

Now i understand why people do insane things for love. I have partly ruined my career once last year because of her. I don't want to repeat the same thing again. I still smile whenever i get reminded of her.

I'm really sorry about this Carbon. Try not to blame yourself completely, it can't be all your fault. She might have been busy, given that it was her birthday, maybe she's stressed. I'm a bit suspicious since, as you say, she could have ended it and she doesn't seem to want to meet up.
Give her about a week. See if she contacts you first and explains herself. As I said, her decision is important. After a couple of days, maybe a week, if she doesn't reply, send a message apologising fully, explaining your feelings about her, saying that if she wants to be a friend or not at all, you'll respect her decision because that's how much you care.
You seem slightly impatient by sending so many messages and calling so much, no offence or anything. I can understand perfectly, but when you ask one last time, just send the one message and wait. Don't give up yet, Carbon, you might still have a chance. Trying to forget her at this stage isn't worth it.

DJM19, your insightful words really mean a lot to me. Thanks a lot.

I could have done the thing over messages/mails itself, but i felt it would be more personal if done face-to-face. Now, as she is unwilling to meet up, i guess mailing her is the only option left. I can't seem to control my urges to contact her. It will be real hard to restrain myself. I would do anything to get her back. Only if she let me.

Carbon wrote:DJM19, your insightful words really mean a lot to me. Thanks a lot.

Aww, thanks. That means a lot, though I've never seen my words as insightful. I'm just telling it as I see it.

Doing it face-to-face is more personal and I prefer it since you can see the reaction. Maybe she's unwilling to meet face-to-face because it's too personal or because she sees it as 'moving too fast'. It's hard to control the urge to contact her since you want to know if your message got through or you want to add something else.
Sadly there is no easy way to restrain yourself except to do something else. Go out for a while, meet some friends, even just take a walk or listen to music.

I can understand your feeling well. Just try my advice, give her a while, then send a message along the lines already discussed. After that, it's out of your hands until she replies. We're still here for you, whatever the outcome. If you're in trouble, just come back here or PM me.
Hope this helps.

I have left my mobile at home as i couldn't trust myself. Will definitely wait for few days. And will do as you suggested. It's really nice to have someone to talk to.

Thanks DJM19 and all the others who are helping out each other in this cruel world.

It's really no trouble, Carbon. Just remember, any problems, you're always welcome here. Helping each other out in this world is the only decent thing anyone can do.
Keep us posted and good luck.

I can't believe my luck. I still think I'm high or something. Yesterday, i had a genuine reason to contact her. She replied normally. Then i felt i had to apologize and did so. To my surprise she said "OK". The icing on the cake was when she answered to my question that whether she ended our relationship because she was angry on me or whether she really wanted to end it. She said the reason was the former. I felt like the doctor just gave me a full dose of epinephrine. Then i explained myself why i behaved like a chimp-smoking-grass. She said that no one else would have forgave me like she just did. I was like WTF. I know i have made mistakes, but she is acting as if she has no part to play in making me mad.

As of now, that's the last i heard from her. Will take it damn slow this time. Why do girls always feel that they are perfect when we do something wrong and apologize ?