I need advice

TRIGGER WARNING

My therapist doesnt believe in co-consciousness, and therefore doesnt believe I have DID/OSDD. She also doesn't believe I experienced sexual abuse despite numerous pieces of evidence (asexuality, never stopped bed wetting, knowledge of sex at a young age before being taught it, past hypersexuality at a young age, the fact i have alters, sex repulsion, instinct feeling i was sexually abused even before remembering trauma, fear of sex, daydream of rape not because i want it to happen but because i feel i deserve it). She says it's because i wouldnt have been okay for the years that I was and that the person who i suspect did it doesnt seem like the type of person to do it. However, she does believe I was emotionally abused by her, but that doesnt add up. She's being hypocritical. Do i change therapists and find one that specializes in dissociative disorders/trauma?

give me one reason why you shouldnt

She'll figure out why I'm leaving and think badly of me...I'd still have to see her after because I go to the same clinic for group therapy.

looks like either decision will cost you something. compare the costs.

Not being believed by a T is the worst. 20 years ago, I could have been dealing with this, but for therapists who didn't believe me. Never again will i see a T who doesn't believe me.

Berta

validateme wrote:She'll figure out why I'm leaving and think badly of me...I'd still have to see her after because I go to the same clinic for group therapy.

If is a fear, i can totally understand why you feel that way. But she should have the professionalism to not react that way. If she does, then she is utterly unprofessional and it will validate your choice to leave her.

My gut reaction is that yes, you should find someone who believes what you are saying. The problem with DID/DDNOS etc is that you dissociate from the experiences so naturally you might not remember some things. But you have to trust your gut feelings about the sexual abuse. People just don't make this $#%^ up.

SamsLand wrote:

validateme wrote:She'll figure out why I'm leaving and think badly of me...I'd still have to see her after because I go to the same clinic for group therapy.

If is a fear, i can totally understand why you feel that way. But she should have the professionalism to not react that way. If she does, then she is utterly unprofessional and it will validate your choice to leave her.

My gut reaction is that yes, you should find someone who believes what you are saying. The problem with DID/DDNOS etc is that you dissociate from the experiences so naturally you might not remember some things. But you have to trust your gut feelings about the sexual abuse. People just don't make this $#%^ up.

I would never intentionally make up sexual abuse. I just felt like I had to remember and unconsciously created memories. That or they were real memories, but just in the wrong place. I'll never know.

I'll see what happens on Monday...she's bringing in the DSM to prove her point, but I dont see how the DSM will prove that I cant be aware of what's going on when I switch with my alter. After all, plenty of people with DID experience some level of co-consciousness, and all people, I believe, with OSDD experience some level of co-consciousness everytime they switch.

*OSDD 1b

Don't waste time on people that won't listen

This only my opinion but it is surprising in the extreme to hear that any therapist would express such things. To do so, in my opinion, is unprofessional at the very least, and clearly, retraumatizing. For a therapist to deny a clients feelings is beyond the pale we feel. We would seek a new therapist immediately.