Polaris2043's Journal Vol II (Replies Welcome)

Starting a new journal- replies welcome!

=_= You know I actually had an original intention for the first posting on here but I'm posting anyhow in a 'more organic' way b/c it's healthier* to prevent internal stewing.

'Phase 3' for Hamilton arrives this Friday and with it my expectation that I wouldn't resume work until after my late August birthday.

*but 'not as nice looking'
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I might have to come to an ambivalent concession of having lost past artwork if my Macbook truly ceases working after the attempted update.

*I know what* to bring up =_= ,for 'distance counselling' come Friday but how I get there and where I start is difficult when you have to consider an ~ hour limitation
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Trying to make a 'non-fiction' entry for a writing contest based on 'highlights' from online journals.. it's difficult but it sure as h--l not like there asking for aphorisms but I'm actually finding it a struggle to write an focused essay -- 5000 word limit --



it's like it's a 'medium form' btw requesting a paragraph or two of opinion or critique but not exactly requesting a concise philosophy book response as well...

...I've only really ever seen essays and 'formally' I haven't written any for instituitional purposes since ~15(?)..frankly, I don't think I have an idea as to what a relatively brief memoir like entry would look like.

...always a stupid thing when you start putting pressure on yourself..always a stupid thing when you start comparing yourself...always a stupid thing when you start putting pressure on yourself for something you do mundanely now repurposed for competition..always a stupid thing when you start comparing yourself for something you do mundanely now repurposed for competition

The apparent cartharsis of hearing death metal vocals is what I can liken to, when hearing this https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Usg6QiVo5gg

=_= D--n how pornography agitates me and makes me run to chamomille.

>:I When you don’t know if a refund or rescheduling of an appointment w/a counselor will happen b/c something as seemingly banal and annoying as your iPhone voice memes not working is interfering. Plus how you can make calls but not be heard nor can calls reach you and your speakers aren’t working.

=_= One call earlier to do an update didn’t work and I was rash enough to do a factory reset (~’about 3 minutes’ from completion for the last several minutes) ..

I add a new glass sticker/protection screen yesterday and this happens the day after =___=

Friggin iPhone issues

=_= How the ###$ do ppl who say “your wasting your time’ or ‘you have no life’ exist when being off-put for ~4 hrs b/c of a d—n phone issue can just as likely derail those those #####& ?.

Fudging hate planned obsolescence and it’s role w/the construction of mobile devices. Like UBI and apparently banishing the scarcity and expectations which come w/underemployment, it’s like what stands btw stupid false necessities of barely meaningfully changing hardware and something like this
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Mui7h5HPspg

Expectations

Call CS on how to send iCloud backup info to an Android OS

“ “ for a ~’micro-SIM’ card replacement

=~= see if a refund for counselling is do-able before the time

Looking forward to formally ditching MacBook when possible

Eventually do ‘summaries’ of ‘volume I’ stuff

Expectations