Bi or just OCD?

People, my Gay-OCD actually changed to be Bi-OCD, because i actually managed to win it with one and only rational thought... that was: "If i was actually gay, i would have never loved someone that much as i love my current girlfriend"... And actually, while i was still having HOCD, my best times were when i was with her, so i managed to get over it... but now i keep wondering... I have had a same sex experience when i was younger, with a friend of mine, i was 7 years old at the time and, still at that age, i had crushes on girls. Then, my father discovered it, because that one friend was son of my father's friend, and we had this experience when i was at his house (we sucked each other, and made contact with our tongues - it was not a kiss, just contact tongue-tongue) and we got caught by his older sister. Then, my father, when he discovered shouted at me, saying "Do you want to be like this gay people around there?"... and i, crying, said "no!" (I didn't actually know what i was doing at that time, despite i knew it was something forbidden, and i remember we actually liked it a little it at the time, but i think that it was because we were childs, and didn't know what we were doing). I never had crushes on guys, never wanted to be with one and always found this possibility and though terrible, disgusting and non sense (No mean to offend, im not homophobic, though my family is), when it eventually popped into my mind, as everyone experiences. It was always girls for me, and i always had a crush no my current girlfriend... like, a really big crush... i fell in love with her when i was still little, so, yeah. Then, i developed this HOCD and now it is gone, but i am having this fear that i might be bi... but i actually don't want to and don't find it amusing or arousing... i just want to be the old good me, that liked only girls and never thought about that type of stuff... could i actually "turn" BI, after all this years only liking girls, never wanting man, and finding it disgusting when i thought about it?

-- Fri Feb 26, 2016 8:13 pm --

Remembering that i don't find this thoughts amusing ou arousing...i see them as intrusive and don't actually want to have them... Actually i'm confused... i don't know if i am repressing it or if this is actually just OCD and i don't like them... and this confusion brings me fear and sadness. But i actually never wanted to be with a men and actually never even imagined it... i never liked it.

Ah, and there was a time, last year, when i was walking with one of my best friends, and i always found him so beautiful and wanted to be near him, but never actually had a thought about being with him, and i actually find that disgusting. I actually think i looked at him in a respectfull way, like there was some type of hierarchy, and i looked at him like "oh, he is the commander of the group, so i must be near him, since he is in the higgest spot of the group". Then, i was walking with him, and the thought just popped out of nowhere: "He's beautiful, so why i couldn't kiss him? There are a lot of beautiful men out there, so why i wouldn't i kiss them?" . Then, i analyzed the thought, and thought it was very disgusting and regreted having it, so i was disgusted and kept on walking and forgot about it.

Sounds like it's just OCD that found another way to torture you.
1. If you were bi you would enjoy the thoughts and not find them disgusting.
2. Your experience as a child is no sign. Of course OCD makes you look into your past to find signs. I guess if you had POCD you would take it as a sign that you're a pedophile but it's not, nor is it a sign that you're bi.
3. I think you just admired your friend but admiration is not sexual attraction. You can admire anyone - men, women, old people, young people - without being sexually or romantically attracted to them