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Please forgive my ignorance in advance.

I have been labeled by psydocs as being dissociative but they think I am more borderline. This confuses me and I've basically tried to ignore the voices (quite a few of them) and the organizational structure of survival in my head. As I've aged it has become more difficult to remain in one single state for one day. It is getting stronger and I getting weaker.
When I mentioned ...

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It all started when I was asked to babysit for a couple who I had met by applying for their job through an agency I belong to.
They were very thorough, asking for references, and past experience. Wanting to know everything they could about me. Because after all, I was a stranger coming into their house, to watch their children, their blood.
After the third interview before the night of the first job, the mother ...

There used to be a painting in my old house, where all the wonderfully bad things happened, that I believed to be long gone. It is now hanging in my mother's room, from her wall. Maybe she brought it back because she suspects me of being multiple again? I don't know what it is about this painting, but something familiar, something horrible about it haunts me.



You can't see it clearly in this pic ...

this is pretty depressing, trigger warning now if you are triggered by highly depressing conversation

























I've come to the realization that due to my D.I.D. and past, no one will ever be able to understand me.
Pattern recognition: i have realized several reoccuring patterns over the years.
1. betrayal, even the nicest people end up betraying me in the end. from kindergarten friends, to parents, people betray me
2. confusion. no one has ever fully ...

so i know its just a game and its silly. but im the guild leader of a guild consisting of about 30ish people, and we play the game in a very cooperative manner, lately people have been really upset with me. people even leaving just because of me apparently. and it come down to one simple thing, people misunderstanding me.


does anyone else get this problem? I say things that to me sound like the ...

Apparently starting today is supposed to be the three days that I am supposed to be gone.
An alter named Akeely is supposed to be here for three days, and that is her job. I don't know why she is supposed to be here, probably something to do with some ritual.

So Grace, interfered with the going away bit, letting Akeely know that if I am gone for three days this week there is going ...

Hi guys, any of you in NY or the area? I've managed to find one small support group in this area, but imagine that there HAS to be a lot more multiples in the NY/NJ/PA/CT area.

Now even my silly dreams that should obviously be dreams seem real. I fall asleep, I dream, I wake up, I fall asleep, I dream again, I wake up, I do this a number of times, and I can't tell what was a dream and what wasn't. I'm having a hard time telling dreams from reality. I walked into the bathroom and my chest and face were covered in marks that went beyond bed imprints. ...