Compensatory Narcissism Treatment

Hello again,

After 2 months, i am again changing therapists. I got recommended to see a private clinician who has specialties in psycho dynamic counseling as well as identity issues, which i clearly have. I posted a thread titled Being Myself (indifferent) vs. Appeasing Others (happiness) in the ASPD board. Demon, and a couple others, suggested that i show strong signs of an "unstable identity with an unhealthy dose of narcissism", and sent me a link for compensatory narcissism.

Once i did a bit of reading, i kind of crumbled. Everything about compensatory made total sense to me and i could relate to it 100%. I then called my old therapist and asked for her thoughts on CNPD, and she told me she does not have the power to diagnose me, but she thinks "it makes a real good fit".

My thoughts: I never considered my self inferior, or at least consciously. I do not want to believe that compensatory could be a possibility, but the more i think about it the more everything is starting to make sense.

Although this is not an official diagnosis, i feel as though it outlines me as a "person" perfectly.

Now, my question is, what are the techniques in treating such a disorder? Supposing i have it, narcissism is my defense mechanism. The thing is, i don't want the narcissism to go away. I just want the "inferiority" to go away. I feel as though a fix for me would be totally flip-flopping my self perception.

I am really skeptical about seeking treatment

*If awakenow posts, disregard it, as he has false notions of me. I am actually seeking help so please take this seriously*

You're ridiculous. You went there hoping one of them would say you were ASPD. You even say you'd 'always thought about narcissism'. You were begging for someone else to say you had ASPD, but they said Narcissism.
You've told us you were diagnosed. Odd, you told them otherwise. Now you're over hear, claiming fear of losing something you DO NOT HAVE.
Why aren't you telling everyone here how they basically dismissed you, called you an alt and mocked you? Why are you simply clinging to a very off-handed mention of narcissism?
Seriously, stop already. It's just sad now. You aren't a narcissist, you aren't ASPD. I don't have a clue what you are, but grabbing on to someone saying 'narcissism' because you listed clinical definitions is pathetic.

Oh, sorry, but I let them in on your game. Maybe you'll have some luck in the histrionic forum? Or maybe try the eating disorder forum? Just do NOT go into the BPD forum. That's so unsexy!

Seriously, accept what you are and deal with that. Stop trying to twist it into something else.

-- Tue Jul 24, 2012 11:10 am --

TiredOfRepression21 wrote:*If awakenow posts, disregard it, as he has false notions of me. I am actually seeking help so please take this seriously*

LMFAO - saw what I posted in your thread huh?

Everyone, it's fun. Go check it out.

To be 100% honest with you, awake, the only thing i have ever lied about on this forum was my diagnosis for BDP. It was self diagnosed. My therapist said i have identity and parental issues, and she confirmed her thought that it could be compensatory.

So someone please help me, aside from you

-- Tue Jul 24, 2012 4:13 pm --

And don't think im going anywhere. If i was playing games i would be long gone. Take this $#%^ seriously or don't waste your time.

TiredOfRepression21 wrote:To be 100% honest with you, awake, the only thing i have ever lied about on this forum was my diagnosis for BDP. It was self diagnosed. My therapist said i have identity and parental issues, and she confirmed her thought that it could be compensatory.

So someone please help me, aside from you

No, you said you were diagnosed with NPD, then changed it to BPD with narcissistic tendencies, and now you have NO diagnosis?

Really, stop. I do believe you have some kind of issue, but it is NOT NPD. You posted in the ASPD forum and then ran back here saying "They said I have NPD". It's ridiculous.

There is no cure for NPD. You have nothing to fear. LMAO

I am scared that my defense mechanism will fall apart once i have no need for it. Wouldn't that scare you? I do not know what therapy could do good for me except stabilize me, but i want to keep my overt tendancies

narcissistic-personality/topic92291.html

You're fun. I doubt you will never have reason to let go of your defense mechanisms.

I'm in Massachusetts right now. Hot enough for ya?

Well thats a good thing then. I dont want to let go. I just want to let go of the depression and inferiority complex within me.

Yea man lets ######6 meet up ill be back home on July 28th

How close are you to the Natick mall? we can buy some Alfredo sauce and slosh it on each other in the family bathroom

North shore.

Wow, that really narrows it down.

Too bad i was looking forward to meeting you. (i honestly would if i didnt think youd kill me)