What are you thinking right now?

angststoornis wrote:I wish I would just get on with things rather than procrastinate them, but I keep getting that strong overriding feeling that I'd rather be trampled to death by an elephant than do what I have to do. It's so frustrating.

And oh dear, I just caught myself tugging at my eyebrows again. @_@ (I start doing this unconsciously when I'm stressed)

you tug your eyebrows? - That's okay because I shave mine. Yeh, I have a 'unibrow' and I hate it. Actually, I think that a unibrow is an evolutionary advantage because it prevents sweat from the forehead dripping down onto the nose.

In your first paragraph, are you saying that yiou keep feeling like you just want to lie down and give up on everything? I used to get like that a lot, but you should eventually snap out of it. When you come to realise that suicide is the hardest thing anyone could ever do, then you'll see that it's just better to get on with life... ...

I want my SO to come home from the Army. This wait is horrible!

Chucky wrote:you tug your eyebrows? - That's okay because I shave mine. Yeh, I have a 'unibrow' and I hate it. Actually, I think that a unibrow is an evolutionary advantage because it prevents sweat from the forehead dripping down onto the nose.

Yeah, I just kind of find myself doing it when I'm stressed, I don't even think about it. However, it's odd how I feel so accomplished when I actually manage to pull a hair or two out... it's not exactly like my eyebrows need plucking, they're barely visible as it is LOL.

Chucky wrote:In your first paragraph, are you saying that yiou keep feeling like you just want to lie down and give up on everything? I used to get like that a lot, but you should eventually snap out of it. When you come to realise that suicide is the hardest thing anyone could ever do, then you'll see that it's just better to get on with life... ...

Well, I made a vow against suicide, so it's not an option for me. It's more that I'm a lazy mofo and hate doing anything that involves work, haha. I just wish my desire to get things done would override the feeling of "NOOOO DON'T MAKE ME DOOO THIIIIISSS let me sleep instead y/y? " instead of the other way round. I suppose it doesn't help that I'm not a very efficient worker due to the fact that I'm both slow and easily distracted, not to mention bad at expressing my thoughts, meaning the work will take about 5x what it should do to get done, meaning it's much more of a chore. Argh.

NavyBrat88 wrote:I want my SO to come home from the Army. This wait is horrible!

When is he due home, NavyBrat? The length of time to his homecoming gets shorter by the second - try to picture it like that. He will be fine and you and he will be with each other again in the future.

I'm thinking (while listening to Rodolfo Chikilicuatre) that there aren't enough silly entries in this year's Eurovision. LOL
(But yay Gipsy.cz for making me laugh!)

Thinking about isolation - how I need it more and more. The more I want it - the more it frightens me.

Birthday is Sunday, busy day tomorrow and still have a headache (day 3) and feel like $#%^ from lack of sleep.. wooo.

angststoornis wrote:I'm thinking (while listening to Rodolfo Chikilicuatre) that there aren't enough silly entries in this year's Eurovision. LOL
(But yay Gipsy.cz for making me laugh!)

I haven't seen this year's entrants, but I'm guessing that Ireland's last entrant made people realise that utter shite will not win the Eurovision anymore. If you recall, our (Ireland's) entrant was Dustin the Turkey. It brought shame to my home-country, I feel.

I watch the Eurovision purely for the sheer comedy value. All of the music's trash and and the comp is fixed with full of political voting.

Anyhow about what I'm thinking. I'm in a quandary, on the one hand I really want to get smashed on booze this weekend, on the other-hand I haven't had a drink for over 5 weeks and I'm still on prozac despite the fact it's been about as effective as a sugar cube.

Right now I'm thinking about the happy pills my new doc has prescribed me, and whether they're actually going to help me finally get out of this rut I'm in.

I'm also thinking about the shopping trip I took a couple days ago, and the precise percentage of the dent it put in my accumulated savings, of which are still quite significant from having not been out to spend my money for the longest time prior to the trip.

All in all, I feel better.