is it okay to tell people?

this is jenny and i was waondering if it was totally okay to tell people about me

like, about edward/me and this whole thing

like, i've told like maybe ten people and they're all close or closeish friends to edward because he trusts them so that means i can trust them too right? and so far no one has been angry or anything and they all think i'm real and they're willing to talk to me and they're really NICE to me

and like almost everyone i have told has had to deal with their own mental stuff anyways so i know that they won't think i'm just crazy or anything

so is this an okay thing to do

i dont want to be alone all the time

If you are telling those that are aware of the others, then there really shouldn't be a problem in revealing yourself to them.

Now revealing yourself to somebody who doesn't know, that is probably something you should talk to with the system.

No, she's telling people completely ######6 unaware of the system.

Goddammit.

Did Jenny tell anyone?

Yeah, she did. Another ex.

I'm freaked out by that.

And she's apparently upset at me for yelling at her, when she wouldn't SHUT UP EARLIER. She would just not shut up for two seconds.

I don't want to believe this is real. I can't deal with this. This is just...this doesn't happen. This is some kind of fantasy novel, not real life. LIFE DOESN'T WORK THIS WAY.

She can't be real, because I'm the only one here. I'm aware of every time it's happening, and I feel like I can control it if I really, really focused on it.

numb

numb people talking hard to focus really numb though body's dead legs dead numb. i can focus think maybe think but no not really it's hard to movea nything but thees fingers hard to do that even. out of time. focus.

i am edward still right? right? i don't think so no i don't exist. i do. who am i now

I'm...

...I am so out of control I don't know how to handle anything.

I'm just so scared and numba nd cold. I can't move. I'm scared. I am so scared. Nothing but fear, crying, I am so scared. I don't know what to do?

oh god, somebody help me

And I'd decided to tell a friend myself. Someone Jenny had been playing with, someone who deserved to know.

He tried to give me one of those amateur internet diagnoses so rife out there, and I blew up on him for it. He's now effectively ending the friendship.

I forgot how bad an idea it is to trust people. They always hurt you. If they haven't, it just means they haven't done it yet.

I'm waiting for my world to end again. It's all I can do most days.

And then, somehow, I fool myself into thinking I'm okay.

I'm sorry to hear about all of that v.v Hugs if wanted..

Damn... I'm sorry about this. I hope you can make it out alright.

It's okay. When I get sucked into a depressive state (it's more rare than common these days), it's hard to see how I would ever feel any differently. It's not quite so bad as I may have made it sound up there.

-Edward/Unicorn