When weird things happen in front of T . . .

So I had my apt today with the T. We were having a good session when she suddenly asked me, "Are you aware that you've been sucking your thumb for a few minutes?"

Wow. No, actually I wasn't . . .

What in the world is happening to me???!!??

She's pretty convinced I have DID, but it being nice by not forcing it on me. I had so many "short" headaches today that she finally asked me why I kept rubbing my head. I owned it, and she gently reminded me that switching can cuase a short headace. Sometimes the room was foggy, and at other moments, the room was sharp and clear.
Any one else find this to be true for them when switching a lot?

more than one of your alters are controlling your body?It doesn't sound that bad to me.You could be doing worse things...in more public settings.

-- Wed Jun 20, 2012 10:39 pm --

I don't get headaches or anything,but sometimes I can see people before I actually mentally notice them.Do you do that?

Many of us have found that non-cooperative switches or several switches in a short period of time tend to bring on a headache. You may notice that these headaches, which some of us refer to as DID headaches, can differ in quality from headaches resulting from tension, lack of sleep, caffeine withdrawal or other causes. They can come on fairly quickly and dissipate more quickly than a Non-DID headache. Whenever there is rapid switching when the T asks us all a question, I end up rubbing my forehead because it's uncomfortable.

I have ended up sucking my fingers in therapy when littles are about. My face though is the best. It reveals everything. It is constantly twitching in therapy. Expressing something and everything all at once. I also have excema on my forehead that will not go away and my T believes it is because of the amount of energy that goes thru there during switching. (along with my forehead DID headaches). When things start happening I immediately find I'm scratching the excema sometimes to point of bleeding!

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I've had lots of weird things happen in front of my T!

I get headaches or other body sensations when a switch is happening. Where I feel it indicates who wants to come out. If I resist switching, the headaches get stronger.

When I am about to disappear and let an alter come out, I often experience the out-of-focus symptom. Sometimes I have to fight it to remain at least co-conscious.

When Jen and I switch, it's usually for longer periods of time. However, there have been a couple times that we have switched rapidly, multiple times. The two that stand out in my memory are...

Once, I wanted to play a game with her, but she complained that she couldn't focus inside and had no idea what she was doing. So we would switch after each turn... Let's just say that game didn't last too long. I felt worn out and my head was throbbing. I called it off when I started feeling dizzy and her response was "Thank God". So I suspect that she was having troubles as well.

The other time still baffles us. I was upset and spent almost a week without leaving my internal room. Jen was in my class for me at the time. She was working really hard to keep me awake and co conscious, insisting that it was my class and if I didn't want to come out, Iwould watch from inside. And as far as I knew, in the middle of class, suddenly I was out and she was in. When I asked what happened, she said that she looked out the window, suddenly got this searingly painful headache, and she was inside and I was out. It was the first and thus far only time that we switched without intending to. We still don't know why. We've settled on the idea that I was inside longer than I had been before and... well, that's as far as we could really get.

A few weeks ago, I had a weird switch.
My house needed a serious cleaning, so I cleaned like a mad woman for 2 hours, knowing that it is an alters job to deep clean - I allowed the switch. Then, I had company stop by, which is another alter's job to entertain. I was working on something on the counter and my vision went blurry and shifty. It lasted several minutes while I attempted to keep doing my task. I finally had to stop and wait for it to end. It did, then I found I was completely focused on the new task that another alter is most definitely responsible for.
That was the hardest switch I've had so far. I can only assume that the tasks that needed done aren't normally done back to back, causing a crazy switch.

Headaches come very quickly and usually when rapidly switching which happens often in therapy, for me. Lately they really haven't been that bad unless it is high stress. Another physical thing that happens when one of my alters come out is intense shivering that is very deep from the inside out. No temperature change happens in the room and it isn't like being cold. It's odd. My one protector "raises" the body temperature to the point of breaking out into sudden sweat when he switches. I also have an alter that does not look at peoples faces but stares blankly at walls or the ceiling but carries on conversations all the same as if they were sitting and looking right at the person. LOL