Abandonment & crisis *Trigger*

My T has been trying to get me to go into a hospital. I don't know which hospital. I just know that they specialize in treating people with PTSD and dissociative disorders and that the hospital is in another state. I don't know what state or city. I know the name of the hospital but an internet search has revealed nothing. She said last week we'd wait a week and regroup this week and look into going.

This week has been worse and worse for a variety of reasons. We've had to call her number numerous times this week for support and help. She called us the first time and offered...really, really bad advice. Then she called yesterday and cancelled our appointment. And while I'm sure she has a good reason for doing it, we're feeling abandoned.

We called her resident out of desperation.

*trigger* We don't feel like we can get through a week of waiting to see her again safely. *end trigger*

No one has called us back. We don't know what to do. We're scared. We're hurting. We're not safe.

Ouch, that's harsh! I don't have any helpful advice.

Is there anything you can do to distract everyone from it? Maybe talk to the parts who are the most triggered? I do alot of self talk during abandonment trigger stuff. Like I don't need that person, I'm an adult, I can make it work, worse has happened....give a hug to the part that's crying, let's eat some comfort food/drink(hot coco, lavender tea, or orange juice).

Abandonment triggers are one of the worst though. I hope they call back, but we are here for you.

we're switching so much
it's making problems at work
its hurting us at home
everybody is noticing
but they dont' know
what is happening
they can just tell
we're not okay
we can't eat food
it won't stay with us
we can't sleep
too scared
it's all backwards
it's bad
it's too bad
we hate the t now
she's a bad guy.
we're not gonna go back.

Awww. I can relate.

Um, thanks for responding Borg. I have no idea what I've been doing the last few hours, but according to my roommate it involved putting a basket on my head and smacking things with a ladle. I'm not sure who was so upset, but I'm trying to offer love and comfort to everyone. I'll guess I'll try the T in the morning and hope for...something, anything.

Do you have a crisis hotline #?

And, Im glad your reaching out at this place..

No problem, I wish I knew something that would help w/ abandonment triggers, but I'm glad to see you handling it well. I hope ya'll are able to get some rest.

The T isn't responding to her crisis number.
The local crisis number just keeps asking if I'm suicidal and the guy who answered has told me that DID is not real. It is unhelpful.

Well, we got through the night. Trying to get ahold of the T and/or her associates again today and just trying to stay safe.

The crises lines here are hit or miss too. Anyway, that was really inappropriate thing to say.

Is there a way you can come up with a backup plan for crises? I think it may have been Ashes said something awhile ago about crisis-es(sp?) are like a J shape, the key is to stop them before they slump down and careen off or to shut down mode?
Sorry I super suck at advise/consoling. I just want to make sure you don't feel alone.