Struggling

I'm currently acting as main as ours age-slides and was 8. So I've been out for about 3 days, I think.

I'm really struggling. Our main is back to body age but is super depressed, hurt and just down, several of our littles are down and struggling with memories, flashbacks and all that PTSD stuff so there aren't many protectors free to be around me. I feel like I've been dumped out front & no-one remembers me.

I'm exhausted and feeling so down. I don't really have any friends other than our partner who is working FT. I'm so lonely and down. I just don't know what to do for us.

The protectors made a decision for us, and it's fine, but obviously I'm the one who has to actually deal with that decision etc. I'm just so tired and down. I feel like I'm sat under a storm cloud and I just want to cry.



Kerry

mosaicmonkey wrote:I'm currently acting as main as ours age-slides and was 8. So I've been out for about 3 days, I think.

I'm really struggling. Our main is back to body age but is super depressed, hurt and just down, several of our littles are down and struggling with memories, flashbacks and all that PTSD stuff so there aren't many protectors free to be around me. I feel like I've been dumped out front & no-one remembers me.

I'm exhausted and feeling so down. I don't really have any friends other than our partner who is working FT. I'm so lonely and down. I just don't know what to do for us.

The protectors made a decision for us, and it's fine, but obviously I'm the one who has to actually deal with that decision etc. I'm just so tired and down. I feel like I'm sat under a storm cloud and I just want to cry.



Kerry

So... Basically what you're saying is most of you are depressed and can't really assume their duties so your protectors decided you should take place until everything was better but now that decision made you just has sad as others? If that's it... I know exactly how that feels. The same happened to me whenwe quitted school last year for summer break and V had no one to talk to anymore

Hi Kerry,

I'm sorry you are going through a rough spell.

Eileen says: Do you think you can go volunteer at a soup kitchen or something, just for a few hours, I mean. Sometimes it helps when you can move your focus to helping someone...

Their T always makes suggestions, though, and I think it just makes me frustrated and rebellious lol. Don't know why, just ornery I guess. AND it pisses me off when I get locked in front, especially when it's somewhere they want to be, not me. Like church

Just thought I'd say good luck.

Veronica

Hi Kerry,
I'm so sorry that you are feeling so down. If I could offer advice, I would, but instead I will simply say...I am familiar with these feelings. Lonely. No friends(or very few...only 1 who is local, 1 who lives in another state). The mere fact that you have this illness means you are very resilient, so I know you can get through this and find peace, it's just gonna take some searching.

Hugs if wanted

Kerry, you are important to your system right now, so don't expect too much from yourself. Go easy on yourself as much as possible. Sometimes just making it through the day is all somebody can do. If you can add accomplishing one or two things, consider yourself ahead of the game. Our 11-year-old was left in the body all alone once with no warning before we knew about all the others and it was very confusing for him and he didn't know if it was going to end or not. But it did and it will for you too. Try to feel a little proud of yourself. The others obviously have confidence in you.