This is not a Democracy!

Dude these pics are absolutely amazing. You should start a new thread called the art corner or something.

Agree with dividedtruth!

Oh my gosh, you all are amazing.These are so pretty.
~Rage

Funny, for me it's a democracy. The core is like a non-sentient computer, and it needs the personnalities to run it

The last 48 hours has been on the rough side.I lost time,again,yesterday and when I came out of it my head hurt real bad,felt real foggy, and depressed so I spent the late afternoon and evening mostly in bed.My wife once again set and talk to me and seemed to bring some calming.The night before I got in to a fight with my female other about acting out and stealing time.My other older male and me put up a united front and told her the crap had to stop.She started crying and said we where not being fair and that we were being bullies,ganging up on her, because she had taken control.The little one is just terrified, with wild eyes, and is being very quit,not saying much.To say the least we did not get much sleep and the restlessness was over powering.Then again I guess she got back at us once again stealing time and making us feel so bad.
Now we start the anxiety waltz until we see the therapist on Monday.I am not looking forward to the weekend but the good side the wife will be home and that always helps.
Just wish I could shake the depressed feeling and see the sunny side of all of this once again.
Regards

Ignore the girl. She's like "Me", and all she gets in here is opression and depressions.

Hello Watcheroflights, and welcome to this forum. I was offline for 5 days starting the day you first posted here and only now have I read your thread. Your story and mine have a number of parallels. Much of mine is in the thread Alter in love was a mystery to me. Like you, I am a host who for decades managed to mostly suppress the other alters. And then something happened and chaos ensued. What happened was that I met an apparently ordinary man who somehow triggered most or all of the alters in my system. I still don't know why this happened, but I think it is no fault of his. Different alters had different transference reactions to him, including: soul mate, suitor, savior, and predator. As usual for DID, all reactions were extreme. Like you, I have a good spouse who remains calm and supportive, despite being bewildered and sometimes deeply hurt by some aspects of what I reveal of my inner world.

Does your wife read this forum?

Una
I am just starting to to talk about my dissociative issues with my wife.No,she dose not read or is she on this forum.I taking little steps in letting here know more about what is and has been taking place with me.As I posted on another thread I am a little on edge about her meeting the others.The others have been out with her but she just thought it was me being me.Last week when we first talked she laughed and said she gets it.She said she now understand tha sometimes when we would have discussions I would stop in the middle of the discussion and go off to where I go but in a few days or a week would pick back up right where I left off in a discussion and finish it.Also she understands the talking to myself was more than one just taking to ones self.She told me that early on in our marriage that she did get worried when my talking to myself got loud. One of our son's has always been a little bothered by the talking to my self issues.He jokes about it now and always ask my wife who the hell I am talking too.
Also the wife made the connections with times I go off,do not hear and I just look off into space.
She knows when I am not present and now has a basic understand.
I guess I am lucky that I have someone who loves me,wants to be supportive and wants to help.I wish many on this fourm had the support I have.
Thing are working much better with the system,the group is working together better.I had a surprise the other day that Clair,my female other,apologized to me for stealing time.We have calm for a change and that is good.Yes I,we still have our moments but we are working hard to move forward.
Regards
Watcheroflights

Hm. That son may be more aware of your alters than you realize. He knows you are not talking to yourself. He may even be able to identify some of your alters, and may have secret nicknames for them. Actually, what would really freak you out is if he knows your alters by their own names. Uh oh.

I think it would be helpful to mention early on in the disclosure process to your wife that she has met your alters already. She may already be fully aware, and the only one who has a problem with this is you. This may be just your habitual secretiveness and fear, projected onto her. What do you think?

Only recently have I become aware of how often I speak out loud in response to a conversation going on in my head, a conversation that I am not aware of. I am doing something (washing dishes) and thinking about nothing much, when I hear myself say very clearly something such as "Yes" or "Okay" or "That works." I became aware of this only after becoming aware of how often my husband asks me to repeat what I just said or otherwise fill in the blanks. "Una, were you talking to me?"

That Claire said she was sorry for taking executive control is a huge step forward. Did you meet her half way? Maybe offer to give her time out? Ask her, just as you would ask a teen child, what she plans to do and where she plans to go while she is out.