Do you ever feel..REALER?Weird question.I know but necessary

So, I was riding my bike, and I thought to myself "what if it were true?" It being what if I DO have DID/DDNOS. Weird $#%^ started happening. I don't know. Maybe it's normal. BUT IT AIN'T NORMAL FOR ME!!! So if this is normal, maybe I have just been abnormal my whole life and am starting to become normal lol.

Weird $#%^: started to get random get goosebumps in wierd places like my left leg lol. Started to become freaking aware of EVERYTHING. I could feel EVERYTHING. Hear everything. Smell everything. Feel every movement my body was making. ALL AT THE SAME TIME. It was quite mind boggling. I couldn't have any emotion or anything because I was just pretty much mesmerized by the fact that I was experiencing all these senses all at the same time. And the SOUNDS! The sound of my bike, the sound of the cars, the sound of the bugs, the music on my ipod, all occurring at the exact same time with the smells AND THE SKY WAS SO BIG!!!

And don't think I'm complaining.......It was really cool! I HAVE had this experience before, but rarely. And when I was in the grocery store I kind of felt like a little kid, all shy and $#%^, but looking at EVERYTHING, and um...dancing to the music when nobody was looking I realized that I was saying the word "celery" over and over in my head subconsciously because that's how I remember what I need to get in the store, saying it over and over again in my head till it becomes subconscious lol. But then I was like "no L, we already got celery" and then I was able to stop saying it over and over in my head.

HAHA sorry this is soooo random. Once again, I am not complaining, I am just wondering if this is what normal people experience all the time??? Because honestly that sounds like toooo much to take in. I wouldn't be able to hold a conversation if the world seemed so legit REAL all the TIME!!! I would get too distracted:lol:

Kind of sounds a bit like what happens to me when I get a high with my bipolar. I can feel the air on my skin even when there's no breeze, colours are more vivid, lights brighter, I can feel electricity coming up from the core of the earth, I see sparkles in the sky even if there's no sun, I feel the blood in my veins and it feels fizzy like sherbet, I'll have a huge grin, feel waves of happiness wash over me. Yeh, they can keep their mood stabilizer drugs, lol. X

It sounds to me like accepting you have DID/DDNOS is the way forward. It sounds like you live in a constant state of dissociation characterized by hypoarousal with depersonalization, and while having this thought for a moment your arousal state became normal and you were able to experience all these sensations that are in fact always there.

Una+ wrote:It sounds to me like accepting you have DID/DDNOS is the way forward. It sounds like you live in a constant state of dissociation characterized by hypoarousal with depersonalization, and while having this thought for a moment your arousal state became normal and you were able to experience all these sensations that are in fact always there.

That's kind of...a wake up call. Makes me wonder how others experience life??? And kind of makes me want to take this whole thread in to show my new T on Saturday.(without the responses of course)

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dividedtruth89 wrote:So, I was riding my bike, and I thought to myself "what if it were true?" It being what if I DO have DID/DDNOS. Weird $#%^ started happening. I don't know. Maybe it's normal. BUT IT AIN'T NORMAL FOR ME!!! So if this is normal, maybe I have just been abnormal my whole life and am starting to become normal lol.

Weird $#%^: started to get random get goosebumps in wierd places like my left leg lol. Started to become freaking aware of EVERYTHING. I could feel EVERYTHING. Hear everything. Smell everything. Feel every movement my body was making. ALL AT THE SAME TIME. It was quite mind boggling. I couldn't have any emotion or anything because I was just pretty much mesmerized by the fact that I was experiencing all these senses all at the same time. And the SOUNDS! The sound of my bike, the sound of the cars, the sound of the bugs, the music on my ipod, all occurring at the exact same time with the smells AND THE SKY WAS SO BIG!!!

And don't think I'm complaining.......It was really cool! I HAVE had this experience before, but rarely. And when I was in the grocery store I kind of felt like a little kid, all shy and $#%^, but looking at EVERYTHING, and um...dancing to the music when nobody was looking I realized that I was saying the word "celery" over and over in my head subconsciously because that's how I remember what I need to get in the store, saying it over and over again in my head till it becomes subconscious lol. But then I was like "no L, we already got celery" and then I was able to stop saying it over and over in my head.

HAHA sorry this is soooo random. Once again, I am not complaining, I am just wondering if this is what normal people experience all the time??? Because honestly that sounds like toooo much to take in. I wouldn't be able to hold a conversation if the world seemed so legit REAL all the TIME!!! I would get too distracted:lol:

hello,,
like your discription of your experience, this is neat,, had a concussion ten years ago... had very similiar experiences for a period after concussion.. i figured it was my brain fixing ,organizing things inside, somehow alot of the processing time went to the senses...like you said it was cool,, happened to me for a while, every now and then. but has not for a very long time..
the desription of everything happening at the same time sounds like it may be the way non dids percieve things ,, ,in a relaxed mood,,, your senses all being able to feel and react at the same time. Also a alot of non did minds will concentrate on one thing and forget about the others,, for instance the Ipod, but cruise on down the road on the bike. but still semi aware of the surroundings (cars buses lights) etc.. similiar to an auto pilot on the bike to get somewhere.

dividedtruth89 wrote:So, I was riding my bike, and I thought to myself "what if it were true?" It being what if I DO have DID/DDNOS. Weird $#%^ started happening. I don't know. Maybe it's normal. BUT IT AIN'T NORMAL FOR ME!!! So if this is normal, maybe I have just been abnormal my whole life and am starting to become normal lol

I've had that feeling before, but I don't think that's what "normal" people are used to experiencing. There should be something in between being numb and hyper-awareness. People are supposed to be able to filter out most of their world, so they can focus on the task at hand... otherwise, nothing would get done, because we'd be too distracted by everything.

This is what it feels like to suddenly come out of depression. I think people get used to the greater sensory arousal, and it soon becomes "normal". Many "normal" people are more or less detached from their bodies and their surroundings. Grounding exercises focus on becoming more aware of sensory inputs of all kinds, less "in our head".

I've come out of depression episodes. It's like a fog has lifted, colors look brighter, I can finally concentrate on things, etc... not like every little detail is all coming at me, at once.

This is similar to how I felt when I stopped trying to muffle my alters. I stopped trying to ignore them, I stopped trying to force them away, I stopped trying to convince myself they weren't there, and I stopped trying to stop them from coming out and spending time out. Once I accepted them, all of them, as parts of me and acknowledging that they were there, I felt...free, in a sense. It's like a veil was lifted away from the world and I was seeing, hearing, feeling, and experiencing everything for the first time. It's like ALL of me was experiencing it, instead of PART of me, which is how it had been for years I guess. Letting my alters share my experiences and letting us share time spent out has really helped with this, too. It didn't stay as intense as it first was when I accepted everyone for being who/what they are, but it still feels different from when I was filtering things and trying to be the only one out and experiencing things all the time when I was still in denial. I pictured it to be like windows for myself and all my alters. I had my open windows to look out into the world with, but I kept theirs' closed and had the shades down so they couldn't see out of them. Then when I accepted them, it's like all of their windows opened, and ALL of me was able to see the world and experience it. If that makes any sense.