Developing situation..

Hi all- Hoping to get some advice. Switched over to this forum- here is my original post from another board here. depersonalization/topic53229.html

In addition to that, the past 2 days have felt increasingly off. The intrusive thoughts occur more and more, and I get that wierd feeling all the time.It's almost like a sensation in between my eyes makes my body shudder, sort of like goose bumps. I feel like there is something that is about to burst in my head. Some people report headaches..I have been having a feeling like pressure around my temples. no pain, just pressure. can anyone relate?

i had a bit of a breakdown the other morning in front of my girlfriend. I never have breakdowns, this was a big surprise. I had been feeling very vulnerable for a couple days, and "everything" wasn't really "working". I felt overwhelmed by this feeling like something is about to burst (I still do, actually). I started to cry, trying very hard to hold it in. I felt like I could have totally balled my eyes out. She was holding me, and I was trying to figure out what was spinning around in my head and making me feel this way. In the midst of all this, a strong thought-phrase in my head said "thats enough for now". And instantly, all the sorrow disappeared. I guess thats a good thing, but it was light night and day..

My question I brought here is this (its on the original post):

...the blackouts probably have always been around. I sense some red hot feelings coming off something. Not sure what it is or how to make it relax?

Any pointers on all this?

Thank you!!

Have you talked with a doctor? It might be worth having a check up just to rule out anything physical.

I don’t experience headaches but I do have busy thoughts and a fuzziness and confusion when I have gone without sleep and feel a depression coming on which is the result of everything else that’s goes on. This is when I’m not dealing to well with everything else and it can be a bit scary. I found staying calm and trying to get some rest helps, and then on the other hand, if I’m not sleeping, keeping busy seems to help.

But if I were you I would go get it checked out and rule out the physical stuff before you start worrying too much about the mental stuff.

My Psychiatrist agrees I have alot of dissociative symptoms...and that incident where i found myself having ice cream and the one where I was listening to myself talk (on the old post) are very unsettling. and I agree- when I'm tired, I have lots more of the distracting thoughts and distant feelings.

walden wrote:It's almost like a sensation in between my eyes makes my body shudder, sort of like goose bumps.

I get something kind of like that, when I read/see something that uh... bothers me? Like something triggering to me. But you have it all the time? I get pressure in the front of my head, when an alter is upset (usually at me ). I think Lillyrose is right; maybe you should go to a doctor, just to make sure everything is okay.

walden wrote:In the midst of all this, a strong thought-phrase in my head said "thats enough for now". And instantly, all the sorrow disappeared.

Okay, that part is cool. Reminds me of when J was in control and I was freaking out, and C said "tone it down", and I was suddenly back in control Maybe someone inside needed to cry, and was co-conscious with you? I'm not really sure how the whole gatekeeper thing works (don't think I have one ), but maybe that's who said "that's enough for now" (meaning the sad alter/emotion should go back in, now)?

canolime wrote:I get something kind of like that, when I read/see something that uh... bothers me? Like something triggering to me. But you have it all the time? I get pressure in the front of my head, when an alter is upset (usually at me ). I think Lillyrose is right; maybe you should go to a doctor, just to make sure everything is okay.

That feeling is just when things are getting upsetting. And thinking about all this and reading posts here is making me feel awfully distant. Today at work I was finding myself watching my hands do the work and me just observing not thinking. I'm going to be calling my psychiatrist tomorrow for sure. Maybe I'll have to see the PTSD specialist afterall..really do not want to dredge those things up though!!

canolime wrote:Okay, that part is cool. Reminds me of when J was in control and I was freaking out, and C said "tone it down", and I was suddenly back in control Maybe someone inside needed to cry, and was co-conscious with you? I'm not really sure how the whole gatekeeper thing works (don't think I have one ), but maybe that's who said "that's enough for now" (meaning the sad alter/emotion should go back in, now)?

Definitely felt good to have it disappear, but man that was weird! I felt very refreshed after too CANOLIME- I saw you had a post about physical pain blocking...I wonder how related this is? The "turning off" certainly felt similar

P.S. Has anyone tried EMDR? How does it affect you? My doc recommends it, but I haven't heard much about it.

walden wrote:That feeling is just when things are getting upsetting. And thinking about all this and reading posts here is making me feel awfully distant. Today at work I was finding myself watching my hands do the work and me just observing not thinking. I'm going to be calling my psychiatrist tomorrow for sure. Maybe I'll have to see the PTSD specialist afterall..really do not want to dredge those things up though!!

Oh, okay. Then maybe that is like what I get. Maybe the distant feeling after reading is because things are a little overwhelming or a little too real... I get like that too, when I read too much about this stuff. I don't think you have to jump right into the bad stuff... start slow, maybe?

walden wrote:CANOLIME- I saw you had a post about physical pain blocking...I wonder how related this is? The "turning off" certainly felt similar

Yeah, it is similar. I think it all has to do with dissociation, so yeah


If you don't get any replies in here about EMDR, you should make a new topic about it.

canolime wrote:h, okay. Then maybe that is like what I get. Maybe the distant feeling after reading is because things are a little overwhelming or a little too real... I get like that too, when I read too much about this stuff. I don't think you have to jump right into the bad stuff... start slow, maybe?

Thats a good point. I suppose I can tell them what I want when I want. I have a hard time trusting those therapists. I had one that did nothing, it was a waste of time.

Yep

It can take a while to find a good therapist... it takes a while to find a good anything

What is EMDr?