Rock bottom

I really feel for you
There's been lots of times where I just didn't want to get up anymore.

We're here for you. It might not seem like much, but hang in there.
You don't need to be anyone except yourself.
Anything less will tire you.

Thank you for posting. The only thing that keeps me going in life is being
able to be there for other people, and trying to help.
I guess that's who I really am.
Maybe you need to look further into who you really are?

And maybe you don't have to fake a smile today. You're allowed to be miserable
if you need to feel miserable. Sometimes it feels good just to let down that happy face
and just be the way you really are. Just know that we're rooting for you.

broken_mirror wrote:We're here for you. It might not seem like much, but hang in there.
You don't need to be anyone except yourself.
Anything less will tire you.

Thank you for posting. The only thing that keeps me going in life is being
able to be there for other people, and trying to help.
I guess that's who I really am.
Maybe you need to look further into who you really are?

And maybe you don't have to fake a smile today. You're allowed to be miserable
if you need to feel miserable. Sometimes it feels good just to let down that happy face
and just be the way you really are. Just know that we're rooting for you.

You know what? this reply says it ALL.
And I feel the same way (in bold)

Ben

Okay, you need someone to tell you're making this worse than it has to be?

That's me. I'm your guy. And I'm here to tell you YOU'RE MAKING IT WORSE THAN IT REALLY HAS TO BE! You're alone? So what! Most people spend a lot of time alone. Even in a house full of people, I spend most of my time alone. You failed an assessment? Woop dee doo, I've failed plenty of exams, tests, and even classes. But then I get back on my feet and do better the next time.

I'm sorry to say this, Cate, but you're being a baby over nothing. No one to talk to when you get home. Fah! I'm on the interwebs at all odd hours of the night! This! AIM! You name it! It's really not that hard to get in touch with me if you need someone to talk to and whine about your long day.

Pull it together, Cate, you're stronger than you think.

You're damn right she's strong. She won't let any of us out. The only reason I'm out is because she came home from college and went to bed. She doesn't need me anymore, she's started cutting on her own and she cuts deeper than me, she cuts with intent.
I don't know why the ###$ Constantine isn't doing anything. Your tough love ain't working this time Bates. She doesn't even care about us anymore. She wants to die and she's going to take all of us with her! James.

Don't have any advice about the feelings, not really my area, and don't know if this is any help/hope but when I was in engineering school where the professors are known to be cocky, hard-ass, sons-of-bitches, I had a problem with Meagan who skipped out on finals week, just f*in' left town!

Someone told DeAnna about the Students with Disabilities office. Since we had (actually Meagan had but u know...) a diagnosis of Major Depression (not even DID), we qualified. They helped us with the issue (we didn't tell them about Meagan, just used the depression diagnosis with no details: theyre not really allowed to ask, just have to consult your doc for a reference) and we ended up getting a retroactive withdrawal in the classes we missed. Not great to repeat $#%^ but saved my ass, GPA-wise. and other benefits did come of it, like being able to take tests with a proctor in a quiet room, alone, with extra time. Stuff like that. It kind of hurt my pride to let DeAnna take the help, but now I'm glad she did because I don't know how we woulda got thru otherwise. Its kinda hard to take tests when whiny babies are cryin' in yer ear, ya' know?

Just thought it might be something you could at least look in to. I think schools are required to have these kind of programs, maybe yours does too.

Veronica

Been thinking about u and wondering how u r doing? I just want to remind u that somewhere inside u have a really good sense of the humor of life to draw on. I mean I've been giggling for a while over your signature

"Life is like a box of chocolates; a cheap, thoughtless, perfunctory gift that no one ever asked for. -CSM"

That's priceless

Hope u r doing well.

DeAnna

The best place to hide a frown is behind a smile. Today has been an alright day but my plans remain unchanged.

Maybe if you took up a hobby, you'd have something to take your mind off things. Guitar, model kits, maybe something with computers. Or maybe you've always had your eyes on some hobby you never had the chance to take up. Go for it now.

Try nuturing something... growing a plant, getting a pet... instead of destroying.
It's helped us a lot... (I have some delicious food plants growing in my kitchen)
Try creating something, like cooking food, inventing a recipe.
Discover a new talent, develop a new talent.

In order to try and make me realize that there are still things to do,
a younger kid woke up the other day and learned how to write using their left hand,
and did everything that I normally did only mirrored. Their goal was to prove to me that
I am still capable of learning and there are still exciting new experiences to be had and experienced.
I was pretty impressed, personally.

Hang in there, we're all here for you.

You've all been so nice. I'm sorry.