Questions about dissociation and memory

Sometimes when I dissociate, my personality changes and I feel like somebody else. I have a few different people inside me. But a lot of the time I don't completely lose my memory. It is POOR and very hazy/foggy when I come out of it ans return to myself, but I CAN and often do remember things even when I switch. Maybe not everything (I wouldn't know anyway if I can't remember) but some things at least. Does this still qualify as DID or another disorder? Thank you.

From what I know, if you have hazy_foggy recall that would still possibly be a dissociative disorder bur fall more under OSDD/Partial DID instead

LavenderRose1312 wrote:From what I know, if you have hazy_foggy recall that would still possibly be a dissociative disorder bur fall more under OSDD/Partial DID instead

Okay thank you for your response

Sometimes I do totally forget but I can regain it after a point. Like sometimes I lose my memory in the middle of talking and have to ask what I was talking about. But then I remember once the person says it

i agree that this sounds like OSDD probably, but could certainly be classed as DID depending on who's dx-ing it.

..but remember that diagnoses are just labels made up to help categorize and figure out treatment and insurance and stuff. our conditions do not conform to diagnoses exactly - they exist in an infinite spectrum, just like all human traits do. it's easy to get hung up on "which one am i" and "is this valid" or "am i fake" but your experiences are real, no matter what some doctor would call them. <3

vortexvoid wrote:i agree that this sounds like OSDD probably, but could certainly be classed as DID depending on who's dx-ing it.

..but remember that diagnoses are just labels made up to help categorize and figure out treatment and insurance and stuff. our conditions do not conform to diagnoses exactly - they exist in an infinite spectrum, just like all human traits do. it's easy to get hung up on "which one am i" and "is this valid" or "am i fake" but your experiences are real, no matter what some doctor would call them. <3

Thank you, that's comforting. I do worry a lot that I'm just faking it. I don't know why I worry about it. maybe I'm trying to prepare myself for if other people say I'm faking it

In partial DID/OSDD, you can have no amnesia, partial amnesia, or amnesia to the point of losing time, but it will be related to switches or co-presences between alters associated with strong emotions: traumatic or stressful events, trauma anniversaries, that kind of stuff. The amnesia last for few minutes to few hours, rarely more.

In DID, all form of amnesia can occur with any switches, at any time, even for neutral or positive events (but not all DID switches leads to amnesia). The amnesia can last for few minutes to entire months or years.

In other words, if you have amnesia during stressful events, or no amnesia at all, it's pDID/OSDD. If you have amnesia about neutral or positive events, it's DID.

As a side not, full or partial amnesia for stressful events can also happen in any trauma related disorder (CPTSD, BPD...), or any disorder with emotional dysregulation (anxiety, autism, ADHD...). There are a few more criteria to check (related to the sense of self/identity) to make it a part of pDID/OSDD.

I hate the "losing time" thing
It's happened about 4 times in my life where I've got from point A to point B with absolutely no recollection of the events in between
I've been with people at the time and they've not even noticed that anything was a miss and I think that made it even more baffling for me because there was no stress involved

Other times I can sort of remembered but it's like I'm remembering someone else doing something and I'm remembering it as if I'm remembering a dream. I hate this as well because this does happen when I change and it is due to stress

!!!!TRIGGER WARNING!!!!
Last week I had a memory of an extremely stressful situation regarding having to stop a caregiver abusing me when I was 11 or 12 and this is a completely blacked out memory where I can only remember the instant before the black came

So I'm now calling that "doing things in the blackout"